joke me something awful...
Saturday, January 08, 2005
4:55 PM
"...I wanna be a TPJCian
I wanna wear my TP crest
Y I wanna be a TPJCian
'Cos TPJC is the BEST!"
this is e college cheer i learnt in tp..but when i wan to sae e last line..i'll be like..issit..realli meh..the best? how can..?
1st week of sch is kinda horrid? i dun realli haf ani frens, i hate the feeling of being left out, forgotten, being lonely, no sense of belonging, and guess wad -
tpjc made mi feel tt.
maeb i'm too dao, too anti-social, looks too unfriendly-i dunnoe. i juz dun understand y nobody like wan to take e initiative to tok to mi u noe?okie so maeb u'll sae i shld like start toking to others.i tried.n juz when i tot i made sm frens hu can go break wif mi, the whole grp of them bang sei mi, leaving mi n my bag alone there on the canteen table when i merely went to return a plate.
tok abt feeling disappointed n angry.
so i decided not to realli tok to ppl..coz anw they wont even notice mi? wad's worst was tt on the og grp contact list,my name n contacts were not even on the list.i do not belong to tt grp,it seems.okie..maebe i'm too sensitive.but it's 'coz tt dae mi n my nas frens were late coz we were waiting for a v late fren hu missed her bus.it was so late tt e side gate had closed, so we had to walk all e way to the front gate..n woah, there was like a long que of late comers forming alreadi, n e majority of dem r tpjcians, mind u..tt's how slack e sch is i suppose..n coz i arrived late,i wasnt exactly sitting wif my og grp,i cldnt even recog if e ppl i'm seated wif r in my og or not..so maeb tt's y e pp to write our contacts wasnt pass to mi..
wadever..i dun realli care.
i'm beginning to dislike e sch more?i'm not tt sure,but it's coz i dun feel a sense of belonging,i din realli enjoy the orientation..okie maebe e silly jokes the ogls made,n e farni thgs they sae,n e fun games they played..but i juz feel it's not "happening" enuf..like other jcs haf trips to east coast parks etc to plae amazing race, n wadever it is, i juz wan to believe tt their schs r definitely more fun then this sch.sorrie ogls n scs of tpjc.. =X
e onli incentive i got was probably e chance to ogle at cute guys?haha..silly mi.
for subj combi, i'm taking phy,chem n maths. cca..most prob band..n another cca..guess wad, i signed up for sc..haha.bein veri realistic n tinking of the cca pts.okie la..mi wan learn sm skills as well ma..but it seems tough coz u haf to ged e sch to elect u into the sc.but tt's after 1st 3 mths.hopefully i'm not dere alreadi.i juz tink ppl[esp my og coz they will tink "wad's this anti social ger doing there?"] will luff at mi if they c mi there running for elections.
next wk e lectures will start..n e following wk e real timetable will set in.den i'll haf a hectic time..hopefully my cg is a friendly n fun one..?i realli hope to make sm real frens, not juz accquaintances,
n not ppl hu will bang sei u w/o a word.
oh yah..yest was og nite..a realli impt event coz it's e closing, n there's mass dance,performances, cheering competitions..
but,i din attend it.
i wanted to go actualli, den tt morning i asked my frens n they tink i shld attend my cousin's wedding instead[my cousin's wedding dinner took place yest as well,at conrad hotel]..n i was like, okie,since nobody will realise i'm nt there, y not go for e wedding instead? it's a once in a lifetime thg also..so i tink tt was more impt.
2nd wk at tpjc - hope it'll bode well. *crosses fingers*
...like a kiss on the neck of just friends
