joke me something awful...
Saturday, March 05, 2005
12:08 PM
thurs i wanted to reg for my jae..but the server was veri bz n i cldnt log in..despite being online frm like 3+ to 6+ ... -_-'' waste my time..=( den tt night i found out tt dey extended e reg to mon 6pm..n increased e capacity so tt more can log in n not face problems of server being down coz of high traffic. i juz submitted my registration at abt 10am..
1.vj,2.tj,3.tpjc
i wanted to do it asap so tt i wont b influenced n change my choice..
u noe..it's veri funnie to c the extreme 2 rxns frm my sec sch teachers n jc tutors when dey noe i wan go for vj..
"go for it doreen...dun listen to others...they wan u to stay in tpjc tt's y they tell u tt..give it a try..u don't want to regret it when u're old right?..."
"if u put tj..u definitely can ged it..but if u put vj as 1st choice..it's quite risky..u can onli choose between vj or tj to put as ur 1st choice..because if u put tj as ur 2nd choice u're wasting ur choice..dey sure wont accept u.so choose tj or vj as 1st choice, n put tpjc as 2nd choice.."which made it harder for mi to choose..i noe i m a lil bit too ambitious n i'm a lil crazy..i was aiming for tj all my sec 4 life u noe..frm prelims to my Os..den now tt my results assures mi a place in tj if i choose it as a 1st choice, i chose to gif this chance up n risk putting vj as 1st choice, noe-ing tt if i dun ged in to vj,tj most prob wont take those hu put dem as 2nd choice, n i may veri well end back in tpjc..or worse..sm other sch. wad's wrong wif mi? = (
despit e fact tt trspt is diff, i may face diff adapting, making frens, becoming more ang-moh-rish..i still put vj as my 1st choice.
siao right?
i tink so too.
i've been tinking abt it.. smhow
vj and doreen doesnt seem to equate.
plus..e problem of my cca..i'm pretty sure tt if i join e sch after 1st 3 mths i wld not b able to join e sch band..coz syf takes place in may..n it's less den 2 mths so dey wont take in ppl unless e sect is realli short of ppl[kinda unlikely for saxophone sect], or u r a star player [even more unlikely] ..den dun join tt i also dunnoe wad else to join. mi n my pathetic life. like no band den no more cca can join.let's c..sports is out, cultural grps r out..leaving mi wif clubs n societies like.. i dunoe...?sci? maths? eeeww...
mi n my more pathetic life.. =(
yest i went for tpjc band prac..i was e onli junior there lor..not tt e others quit la..but maeb dey got thgs on..like wad career seminar kinda stuff. den at e end of e prac e conductor was asking e j1s..if u're staying let e president noe..if u're leaving also must let him noe..if u're choosing smwhere else but unsure also let him noe..actuali i wanted to tok to him after band prac..but apparently dey had a committee meeting so 4get it lor..i dun wan to wait. but my SL asked mi le la..i said i trying to go vj..den e 1st thg he sae is
.."ur agg last yr cant ged in.."den i'm like hurt la..[i tink dey tot i got 10..i tot i got 10 at 1st also..until i realise i can use my exp cl de grade]den after tt he asked agn i said i got 5 net after my bonuses..den he's like okie..but dunnoe whether i can make it not.
e same thg most ppl sae when i [reluctantly] tell dem i wan go vj..dey 'll b like,
" it's risky..but u can try.."
argh.
so now till jae results out[23 mar 10am] still got like 18 daes..between which will b a mar hols..den dere's a band camp lor..so shld i go not ah..it's like i cheating their feelings..make dem tink i'm staying when i'm most prob leaving[i hope i can la.not tt i m.] but i may juz end up back in tpjc lor..so like i tink i shld secure a place..but for syf i cant ler..coz there's alreadi 3 seniors..dey onli wan 4 alto sax..which means onli 1 junior can join lor..n i dun tink i can b e one..coz e other gerl frm bedok view got
her own sax, got piano backgrd, can learn a song damn fast, can side read betta den mi,...n lots more other gd pts compared to mi. wad's wrong wif mi sia..in band for 4 yrs liao still so lousy =(
how how how...?!
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