joke me something awful...
Saturday, April 02, 2005
4:16 PM
i tink i'm autistic.
according to dictionary.com , autistic means :
A psychiatric disorder of childhood characterized by
marked deficits in communication and social interaction, preoccupation with fantasy, language impairment, and abnormal behavior, such as repetitive acts and excessive attachment to certain objects. It is usually associated with intellectual impairment.
okie maeb i'm slightly autistic?
i seem to haf problems making frens n interating wif ppl..coz i'm e kind hu listens rather den tok..u ppl shld noe rite..? so it's more diff now tt my class ppl are like frm gd schs la..so they're e kind hu r veri veri vocal.den everyone in e class will like tok to everyone else..den mi.i onli mix wif a certain grp of gers.ok it's not realli mix.i practicalli jux follow dem ard n reply or luff when there's a nid to..
so in sch rite..i'll feel veri veri out of place.as though my classmates cant b bothered abt my exisitence.like i'm there den i'm there.if i'm not, they wldnt care..
left out,forgotten,...
that sounds familiar rite..like tt alwaes happens to mi.1st 3 mths tpjc i also like tt..omg..=(
of cos besides prob of frens..cca n studies haf also become probs..coz i dunnoe wad cca to join..n it's not like u wan u join u noe..alot of things like whether u can adapt to it..whether u're up to it..n whether it will make a gd cca[now tt they're looking at quality of ur cca in ur testi] . it's like 2nd intakers are not considered lor..alot of ccas dun take in 2nd intakers..like e dance club i joined la.. they dun haf ani more prac for those not in syf le lor.so it's like i haven went to ani prac den dey gonna stop prac for us until may. how to join like tt? studies..even bigger problem.cannot understand in ani subjs lor..their pace of teaching v v fast..so they've alreadi covered lots of stuff in e 1st 3 mths. dey're like 2 chapters faster den tpjc lor..so everytime go lectures n tutorials i dun understand anithg de.makes e sense of belonging thgy worse rite..=(
there's once ah..econs tut, e teacher is a trainee lah..so came up wif e idea of us playing a game to do the econs tutorial mcqs..den my grp consist of 4 ppl,half 2nd intake,half 1st intake. but e 1st intake said dey not v li hai in econs de..sae they also dun reali noe much abt econs.but anws..coz onli 2 of dem can contribute in ans e qns,our grp din ged ani pts for tt game lor.den e teacher was asking y u all so quiet one nv even put up ur hands to try n ans..den one girl sae..coz there's oni 2 1st intakes, e other one haven learn,
e other one,i dunnoe wad happen to her, din take econs in 1st 3 mths [she was referring to mi.] den i'm like wad "dunnoe wad happen"..plus prior to tt she was asking mi lor..y u din take econs den i said i oni took 3 subjs..den she orh okie tt kinda thg..den when teacher asked she said another thg. i'm kinda hurt lor..wad dunnoe wad happen..smmore she noes wad happen..
aniwaes..now i haf to like start studying in ani spare time i haf le la..i tink tt's like so weird for mi..i'm not tt hardworking de lor..but e env pushed mi to b this wae. argh.
so..tt's all for my 1st wk in vjc..it's more den wad i can cope wif lor..smtimes i'll ask myself y m i doing this to my life.
i hope tt i'm onli saying this coz i haven been in e best of moods lately..[PMS-ing la..i'm like..so pathetic rite].
i hope it doesnt become permanent.[best of luck n cheer up!~(to myself)]
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