joke me something awful...
Friday, May 20, 2005
2:48 PM
Heys ppl..yah I noe it’s been a LONG time since I last blogged.[yes kangting u can visit my blog ler.haha.just revived it so it’s no longer dead yah?] Maeb u all dunnoe y..but it’s coz my grandma passed awae on apr 28, thurs..so my labour dae long wkend was spent at her funeral. I was reali veri saddened by this. =( it’s like all of a sudden we hear tt she’s hospitalized(tt was e dae b4 she passed awae)..den next moment she juz passed awae..realli to sudden
Apr 28
3 days after my birthdae
It will be like this for the rest of my life.
How can I ever haf a HAPPY birthdae when I noe tt my grandma’s death anni is just 3 daes after my birthdae?
=(
I’m actually now in my sch’s comp lab typing this. Using word doc btw..coz I dun wan ppl to c mi using blogger ma. Haha. Mi 1st time come into this place actually..den come in liao c everyone den I was a bit shocked.haha. coz it’s like a small classroom full of ppl using com. dunnoe y lah . just shocked n scared maeb. Coz i’m alone in sch waiting for my make up lecture to start at 3.45 .. got abt 1.5 hrs till den..it’s not tt shuyun isn’t in sch..but she has lesson till abt 3.20 I tink. So I’m all alone by myself now.
It’s always like tt when I’m waiting for make up lectures to start. Coz my fren is 1st intake de..haix. speaking of which I shld b veri ashamed of myself. Coz I practically onli haf one fren in e class lah. I alwaes stick with her den we do almost everythg toged. But make up lectures we cant go toged ma.It’s like if I’m not with her, I’m practically alone.
-_-‘’ it’s not like I dun try toking to dem..but e wae dey tok to mi n e wae dey tok to e others are diff. like veri restrained n serious. Den I tok also feel veri awkward so might as well not tok.. n I also dunnoe wad to sae to dem smtimes. I’m like, super pathetic can..argh. cant stand it smtimes. U ppl shld noe ma. If I jus noe u..i’ll be lke super restrained n quiet de. I’m like, u tok to mi den I’ll tok to u. I dun usually try to start a conversation. Smmore I’m in an environment tt I haven really gotten used of. Like smtimes I will still tink: “Am I really in this sch?” I dun feel like I’m in here lor. Everythg sill feels kinda surreal.argh..smtimes can really feel veri lonely lor. Den wan to tok also dunnoe find hu to tok. =(
N ah..i feel tt I’m drifting awae frm shuyun..=( coz I dun c her all e time nowadaes. Onli morning b4 assembly we’ll meet in n sit in canteen with jasmine, huimin, mark n jianmin[jianmin doesn’t tok at all de lor.dunnoe y he’s there. He didn’t used to meet us den suddenly he come join us in e morning.yongyi has managed to find his own clique as well so he just sits wif dem in e morning. Actually all of dem haf their own cliques I tink.like huimin n jasmine are like so gd wif their frens le.just tt we sit toged in e morning lor] But we just do hmwk n tok abt trivial stuff..den coz shuyun’s class is totally all new intake de, so they really can bond n mix together lor. Den I tink she’s having a gd time wif dem. Like she’s as shou as with mi with dem lor. For mi ah.i’m just shou with one person lor..-_-‘’
Anws ..e bestie I was toking abt is liru, n ..erm..I reali feel like she’s veri much like qk lorr. Haha. Let’s c..she likes to speak in mandarin.,wears braces, specs, alwaes aim to do veri well in tests n hmwk n even napfa, kinda competitive[I guess everyone here is like dis.like to compare..i tink we’re more of like conditioned to b this wae]..den if she does badly she’ll be veri sad abt it for a long time. Den she’s kinda blur too.. smtimes cannot understand wad e qn saying..or wad other ppl saying.. n her dad also a taxi driver eh.heex. Sorrie ah qk I tink e wae I’m saying it makes it seem tt dey’re bad pts. But I dun mean it tt wae okies. Onli saying how similar e both of u all are. =P
But she’s veri different frm qk in a wae also..she’s veri veri sociable..will just like make frens with strangers sitting next to her in e LT..or make frens with her frens’ frens. U noe wad I mean? Like she now noes shuyun n tim le lor. N I dun even noe her frens. Funnie how she can b so friendly. But I will feel left out n neglected at times lor. Coz she will like walk walk..den sae hi to this one, wave hi to tt one..chat chat wif another one. Den I’ll b like waiting next to her..U ged my pt.
suddenly i'm kinda stuck.dunnoe wad to sae le. now it's 3 pm..got abt 1/2 hr.
Just now a guy on e next row was whispering to his fren abt e guy in front of mi. he looks like a yr 2 but is playing neopets. Haha. So I’m scared tt ppl will see mi doing this sooner or later so I beter finish up soon.
Suddenly I just feel like I cant c my classmates now be my classmates. Dunnoe y in 4e1 I din feel tt wae. Maeb coz I had a grp of frens instead of a fren. Haha. So now I must like try to haf a grp of frens but I dunnoe how. Smtimes I will tink tt it wld be gd to haf a boyfren here.haha. coz he’ll b wif mi all e time wad. But too bad no one wans mi. n I wan de all attached liaox. Haha.=P
Tml I’ll be gg with 3 of my classmates to support liru in her harmonica band concert..3 of dem all guys. abit worried coz I tink will leng diao u noe. Haha. Awkward atm . I tink I’ll bring camera n take pics wif liru. Den u all c if she has “qk de gan jue” speaking of e harmonica concert I’m abit unhappy abt. Coz I said I wan go but cannot find ppl. Den she will ask mi everydae to ask everyone I noe to go wif mi..she’s like u’d nv noe..smtimes surprising dey will agree to come de. Tt’s y I asked u all abt it lor. Den she noes I gg bak to nas to collect cert she also asked mi to ask anione I c there. Abit over lor I tink..cannot find means cannot find wad. U cant like ask mi to ask everyone de wad. Argh. Den end up coz got a rather “close” de classmate gg so tt’s y I’m gg.. my $8!~ =( nowadaes dunnoe y I feel so poor u noe. Tink too much money spent on tidbits in sch. E bkshop sells a lot of munchies lor. Veri nice to eat de. Tpjc didn’t haf it. Onli got e vending machine. Here is haf both vending machine n a mini provision shop. Heex. But e auntie got AP. E old uncle much better.haha.
Kk..i shall stop here le. Wanted to study to spend my 1.5 hrs meaningfully but I decided to come here n blog instead.oops. haha. Die...dunnoe when I can catch up n understand everythg. I’m already worrying abt my mid yrs lor. Dunnoe how to study so many thgs. Maths we r tested till trigo n induction..chem is until ionic equilibrium, phy is till thermodynamics. Econs is till market structure. I tink we’re far ahead of other schs? Not veri sure..i onli noe I will not b able to study finish. Argh. Bad premonition[wah I dunoe how I noe how to spell this chim word.haha.okies maeb not chim to u but to mi it is can? =] ] now it’s 3.25..gotta go meet shuyun to go lecture le.
Byes ppl!~
...like a kiss on the neck of just friends
