me. my sel f . i

It'll take a while

2006-07-10T17:14:00.000+08:00

it's been some time since i last blogged. hmm. actualli this site is sorta closed down(temporarily)..in case sm haven realised. but i hope i cld resume this soon..yep cya all soon!
good luck for my As!
*crosses fingers*

I love my hair!

2005-11-18T13:01:00.000+08:00

i saw from this phamplet tt they offer 5 hair services n above for 188..i tot it was rather cheap n seeing that my hair is reali crappy these daes. i decided to go n "zuo tou fa" ( do my hair), a la a tai tai..at Hollywood Secrets( sounds glam right? haha.), at Far East Plaza level 3. it's quite a small shop..n i was practicalli the onli customer there at 1st. there's another hu did hair extension, some random customers hu did manicure, eyebrow trimming..but i was the onli one hu did this package n stayed there for 5 hrs! (3++ to 8++)

Ok..from the list, i did 1. Hair Consultation(this also count ah?) 2. Colour 3. Wash( like 5 times? once after colour, straightening, treatment etc..) 4. Cut 5. Straightening 6. Treatment 7. Protein Treatment

i was fairly happy with the result =D (except the fact tt my sis n mum told mi i din look ani different. -_-'') but b4 i show u how my hair looks like now, i haf to show u a "before n after comparison" to prove tt my hair does look DIFFERENT.

my on-looking sis whom i dragged to keep my company during the gruelling 5 hrs.
yah i noe taking pics in toilet veri un glam. esp with toilet signs like those on the doors. but i too paiseh to take pics outside lah.

my sis was supposed to be there to help mi take pictures of my hair .. but as u can see..she's not a veri gd photog with her shaky hands. -_-'' made my alreadi crappy hair look EVEN MORE crappy.

well..during the 5 hrs, i went thru a series of this:
oopS. bad shot. let's try again:

ahh..this IS better.behind me is the manicure section. i wish i had more money to do tt. den can have ppl serving mi hand n foot while i wait for my hair to be done at the same time.
a closer shot of the "heating machine".

basically i was under this thg for periods of 10 mins..when i was dying my hair, when i was straightening, n doing treatments..

after what seemed like forever, i was finally done!

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tt floating shadow is my lil sis btw..haha.

alright..u dun look too impressed.
i noe my colour is not TT obvious, coz i din wan it to! n from the front maeb u cant realli c the straightening..let's look at the back:

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TA-DA! alot straighter right? =D

but..the effect doesnt realli last.. just the 2nd dae my right side of the hair started gg out of place. BUT..it's still better den last time.. i shld be glad la right?=D

comment on how my hair looks now okae?

lately

2005-10-30T15:43:00.000+08:00

recently i've onli been up doin these : oral presentation for pw, confirming my waitress job, preparing to start learning swimming with my sis, watch wangzibianqingwa(!~)

quite a dull life. haha. tt's y i dunoe wan to blog abt it.

oh anw my chem is a grade D, instead of E. n i din sign up of S pps. deadline over liaoz.

oral presentation is veri stressful lor. we are totalli not prepared n our 1st trial we did it by reading our scripts to e teachers. -_-'' n e ppt was TOO brief. we cld be talking abt like 3 major pts n it wld still be under one pt on e slide. so i had to take home n touch up on e slides.e file size changed frm abt 80kb(roughly lah. it's smaller den a diskette size) to 8mb lor. haha. n i was quite disappointed by a grpmate's work. she promised to do the font, colour, animation. but, only e 1st slide n animation for whole ppt was done after we went thru it e next dae. i cldnt help but notice e slides for e part tt she wld b speaking looks a lil more "decorated" den ours. i din sae it out though, din wan to start sm conflict. dere hasnt been major conflicts in our grp despite of havin sm realli irresponsible(at times) members..i guess we'r too forgiving n din wan it to affect our proj pace. or we cldnt care less. just wan to ged it over n done with. if smone doesnt do his/her job, we'll try to help them do it. tt's how we kinda work i guess.

i found e waitress job at a small jap restaurant at east coast road. if u all rmb e trip to daanesh's hse last yr, it's at tt bus stop. actualli i'm supposed to work with li ru one..but she also has a job offer frm her previous boss, so she prefers working to sell uniforms at sec schs den this waitress job. i cld haf joined her, but for her she noes e ppl there well alreadi, i'm gg to be a newbie, so i'm afraid i'll seem damn quiet next to her. although we'll be working diff daes at diff schs, but i tink there'll still be comparisons made by her boss or smthg. [on top of tt realli, i tink working as waitress seems more "glam" then a uniform seller. oops. i mean if u worked as a waitress b4 u'll more prob gonna tell ur next employer, rather den a uniform seller..right?]
i'm gonna start work right after my OP(10 nov) till end of dec. i asked abt e job scope..seems tt because it's a small restaurant u have to do eveythg! like vacuuming, mopping floor[yikes i've nv mopped floor b4!] , cashiering[i like!] wash cups,wash cloth, etc etc. quite alot of work..much difficult den selling uniforms. haha. but since i chose it i must try it lor. right? =D hope it will be a fruitful working experience!

next wk, our grp's onli meeting on wed n fri for practice. fri is e official one with e teachers.on wed is a trial one by ourselves. we'll watch other grps in our class if possible..den we'll ask them to watch us(yikes!*terrified*)

we found one grp presenting to teachers on wed liao.
n.....guess which grp is it. arh..y so qiao. -_-'' liddat i even more paiseh lorr. i alreadi hate presenting so much. okie in case u all misunderstand..it's more of mi towards him den him towards mi..u noe wad i mean? like maeb i read too much into wad he does, when it din mean anithg, n now i ged embarrassed when faced with him. omg..y liddat.

p/s: kt! liru sae i kept nodding my head when presenting..doesn't tt...sound like u? haha. if onli i were as eloquent as u..

[e cough is back agn! oh no it's not back..it has alwaes been there. when will it go awae..OP's in a matter of wks.]

till next time, cya! i'll probabli update when THAT is over.let u all haf a gd luff. heex.

charity shows+ post promos

2005-10-24T15:16:00.000+08:00

i'll talk abt my feelings abt post promos 1st, in case i forget abt them later. it's more chronological in this sense as well. anw, if anyone is interested, my overall grades are as follows:
Chem - E
Econ - C
Math - D
Phy - D
GP - B4(just nice 54.6..they will round up rite?i certainly hope so.)
i'm onli proud of my GP n Econs results, because GP is realli a tough subj n i tot i wld do badly for promos n pull down my C5/6 grade in mid yrs, but i did quite well for the essay(got 31/50, which is veri veri rare n lucky) i wonder if it's got anythg to do with the topic being blogging..hah.anw i'm glad i noe how to blog n can "crap" smthg out of the qn. as for econs, i m veri VERI HAPPY! =D u all noe i failed mid yrs rite(i hope u all still do) so i was kinda worried tt if i just pass marginally this time it'll be a veri bad grade. in e end i got a high B for promos, and the whole thg pulled my grade frm an O to a C! (n it's my best grade overall lor.wad a turn of events.) tt's..O,E,D,C..a jump of 3 grades! But, i was reali upset with my phy though. i kinda like this subj compared to all other sub coz it's more of a logical thinking sub..which i m..moreover my mid yrs was 69, just one mark short of an A, n it got pushed down to D cos my promos was veri badly done. hai haiz. it just shows phy is not my best sub if i nv study well enuf for it..

after taking so many exams through my whole studying life, i figured out(sort of,it's in e midst) a my own study guide:

just stay at home n study for goodness sake! don't waste the time looking for ideal places to ~~mug~~ study.
sleep early! U nid all the brain power n concentration.(I noe U're used to late nights but recently U tend to get realli tired in e middle of the day when U haven realli done much.)
Or, try to sleep in the dae n work at night. but dun do tt when exams are nearing.
do not study until the very very last min. U onli risk getting all the formulae mixed up n making urself more tense then u were.
take gd care of urself so tt u will not be sick during the exams. it hinders ur thinking n ur efficiency.
tidy ur table so tt u get a conducive env to study at.
squeeze in time for relaxation activities like brisk walking, running, cycling, etc - not watching TV/surfing net. U can do all tt after the exams.
eat healthily- avoid overly spicy food that gives U the runs, oily food tt cause u to feel full n sleepy, eat more protein stuff.
plan early. dun wait till the last min. look wad happened.
u're more effective when u do prac pp n learn frm wad u dunnoe.come out with a formulae list for chem,math,phy. early.
work with a goal in mind. keep urself clear-headed, optimistic, motivated.
try not to listen to music/ radio while studying. u onli end up singing.

p/s: i'm sorta reminding myself by writing all these out so i'm referring to myself with "u".

i hope all will help mi for my mid yrs next yr. jia you! =D

another issue is the thg abt S papers. dunnoe if u all are familiar with it but it's practically the talk of the town in my sch, alongside scholarships. 2 S pps merit are required for sm scholarships, so tt u distinguish urself frm the other "competitors", since 3As are almost an understatement when u apply for scholarships. now I nid a BCDD to apply for S pps, with a B in the subj at promos. working tt out, i tink i cld apply for econs S pp. but it's kinda weird since i'm like,bad at econs? i dunnoe. it's onli one S pp so it's quite useless since ppl normalli take zero or 2 S pps. plus, i'm not sure wad i wan to take in uni, much less wad scholarship. yah sm scholarships onli nid 3As..so it's actualli ok to not take. but u noe, my sch everyone's like taking it so..u become a weirdo/ a stupid person if u dun take ani. everyone's trying their best to take S pps, even if they dun qualify, they appeal so tt they can take them.tt's how impt they c S pps.
but my mentality is tt i dun nid them, coz i nid to work on my As subj to get my distinctions at A levels. moreover i dun realli noe wad course to major in, much less wad scholarships to apply. i'm not realli for the idea of scholarships, but the fact is tt uni edn is expensive. it costs abt ten thousand per yr inclusive of daily expenses minus tuition grants. how can my family support this, when both mi n my sis will be gg to uni the following yr?

i'm absolutely confused/aimless now. help, anyone?

the deadline for application is this fri.

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on a lighter note, i was watching the cancer charity show n i began realise how charity shows have evolved.

in the beginning, it was death-defying stunts,like holding ur breath in water for >1min(tt's e onli one i cld tink of..i'm sure there's more dangerous stunts but i just cant tink of them), with attractive prizes to be won, n there was onli one phone line, the $5 one.
now, it's less dangerous stunts, like singing "huang mei diao"(opera/wayang?) a la Fann Wong in yesterdae's show, the prizes are more attractive, and there's 3 lines instead of 1 so that the realli generous ppl can donate $50 at one go instead of having to dial the no. like, 10 times? it's also more expensive to make a call now. it's like 5.60(NKF) or 6(cancer fund)..wonder issit 'coz of the inflation or higher GST rates.

i would think that the less dangerous stunts are so that the celebrities' lives are not tt much at stake, lesser training time is needed so dey still get to carry on with their acting schedule, public wont complain to newspp, and it is to show tt singaporeans are generous, so they donate not because of the level of danger but it's just to help the less fortunate. but, i also noticed tt there are more hiccups in the show during their stunts. they are more likely to fail and wld always try agn..is it because they lack practice or they always perform beyond their limits?

btw, have u noticed their outfits? it's overly accessorised n designed such tt the clothes serve onli as a decoration, not as an aid in their performance. dunnoe if u all saw terence cao in yest's show. he looked more like he was dressed in sm clown's costume tt was bleached so it wasnt as colourful but the puff sleeves were still evident. this is a charity event, yet they made the costumes such tt the celebrities were mostly gonna ged caught if there' s a fashion police team. lols. it seems more like a variety show-no wait, it is a variety show. oh well.

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photos galore!

i've always been wanting to show u all fotos of my class..but i realised i dun haf ani, because i dun bring camera to sch to take class pics, n personalli, it wld seem weird since i'm arguably the most quiet/ un-sociable girl in the class. lucky i finally got the class photos. here they are!

this will appear in the sch mag..lucky i look ok..altho e fringe is abit thick.ahaha.

this is the unofficial one tt i bought as well. i onli bought 2 out of e 5 there is..coz others i look u.g.l.y. i bought this coz it looks funnie.

i recently fell in love with wang zi bian qing wa, and i loved the ring in e show..i wan to buy n wear it myself too! it's so pretty!
kt: i noe u always go out shopping..if ani of u happen to c "affordable" rings tt look like this tell mi okie? thanks! =D

the sky is gloomy. it's gonna rain soon. the night will be colder todae.i like cold weather..but it makes mi feel gloomy too.

p.p.s: noticed my change in style of writing? i wan to ~~sound mature~~ practise for essay writing. i tink this is a gd medium to do tt coz i enjoy typing on comp then writing it out.

check this out!~

2005-10-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

got this frm a classmate's blog entry.tried it out due to pure curiosity and boredom[more of the latter] and i tink it's really accurate. go check it out okie?

what mine said:

"You are longing for a little love and tenderness. At present you are feeling very sensitive and need a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. You don't need any further stresses, strains or arguments so take a deep breath and relax.
You want what you want and you need all that you want and, as they say in the movies, you are the sort of individual that 'By hook or by crook' you will, by fair means or foul, endeavor to get what you are looking for.
You are trying to break away from the mundane existence that you have been experiencing of late. You have many high hopes and ideals but you are concerned whether circumstances will allow you to realize these ambitions. You want to spread your wings - to broaden your fields of activities - but you are concerned that your dreams are just that - 'dreams' which are not realistic. It concerns you that you are not thinking clearly at this time - what you need is to get away from it all, to give you time to think. A short vacation could well restore your confidence.
You feel that you must have co-operation from those close to you before the existing stressful situation can be improved. You feel that no-one understands you and this lack of understanding and appreciation makes you feel completely isolated. You need that feeling of security and would like to get away from what you now consider depressing shackles. You have that need to re-establish your own individuality but your sensual self-restraint makes it difficult for you to let go - to open up, but the way that you are feeling at this time makes you feel that 'Enough is enough' and you are prepared to give in. This disturbs you as you feel that this attitude is an obvious sign of weakness - an attitude to be overcome and so in spite of this situation you feel that in order to assert your own individuality you need to continue to practice self-restraint.
You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality"

tell mi if urs is accurate or not okie? coz i wanna make sure they dun give everyone the same ans.
alright. i'm real tired. my eyes cant realli focus well now n i feel kinda floating.i guess it's e radiation(?) frm the long hrs in front of the comp.

nites ppl!!~

"tomorrow will be a better dae" * yeah,right.

open house

2005-10-13T18:55:00.000+08:00

my sch's gonna have the open house on saturdae..are u all gonna come?

Come catch the breeze! it's gonna be fun..there's free ice cream, vouchers in goodie bags, lots of fun! =)

haahaaaa...sound so fake leh i tink. still dun feel part of the sch i guess. i'm just gonna help out with selling food for Bizclub. realli hope it'll be fun still.

tmr's e yr 2s farewell assembly..now they're off to haf their study break to study,or some of you say, mug, for their As! ~ so scary leh i tink..todae the whole class signed this small pathetic yellow card for the seniors,i.e 04S42, n guess wad, i noe none of them! guess they will be wondering who in the world signed the card..hmmms.

well, tt's all. just wanted to post tt poster.haha. off to watch wang zi bian qing wa loh!~

p/s: not in best state of mood now. highly irritable. u've been warned. =)

after 35 daes

2005-10-11T14:01:00.000+08:00

wow!! the no. of daes between each entry is increasing!~
b4 u noe it..this site will be chucked off in one corner n no one will even notice!*cynically*

promos was BAD. REAL BAD =(

all tt gg to sch library, kfc just to study for nothing. i sacrificed my going out time, my tv time(ok maeb not realli..coz i still watched Prince Turned Into a Frog), my sleep time..n sat at my table whenever i could to study wadever i could.

But still, I dun tink I can make it this time. REALLY. we'll see.

this time i tot i studied much more den i did for mid yrs..coz last wk of mid yrs i was involved in sm global enterprise challenge, if sm of u forgotten..n so I had lesser time to prepare..but this time it’s not tt conducive a time to study too. There wasn’t ani study breaks like tt during mid yrs..so I had to juggle preparation for promos n still attend sch n do sch wk..yah la I noe all jc students also like tt..but it’s just tt I have poor time management lor. So it’s worst for mi. =( well well. Shall nt tok more abt it. Sae more sad more.( ok tt was bad English)

speaking of which, I forgot to tell u all tt my GP essay topic was actually abt BLOGS! =) I’m glad I own a blog so I noe how the whole system works n stuff. Moreover my PW is also abt blogs so I had some info n stats on hand n cld use them! Haha. But dunnoe how it’ll go though..The question was “Blogs are the champions of media freedom. Do you agree?” I agreed to large extent..coz blogs offer ppl the freedom to voice their tots, to design their page layout, and to decide wad they wan on their site. BUT, the writers have to be responsible for wad they sae on the blogs, less they be jailed like those ppl who said inflammatory comments abt malays, n the use of blogs is limited to teens n young adults only..but it’s def better den other forms of media.
Wad u tink? wad u tink? Quite sound rite? I hope I can do better in P1..coz my P2, compre was real bad!(I tink I used this a lot of times le hor.haha) coz e passage was though..questions were not tt straight forward, and I wasn’t in e right mind of thinking coz of my flu! My whole throat was filled with phlegm and I din dare to cough coz we were in e classrm n it was VERY quiet. So I beared with it n almost died of suffocation! =( n my nose was running n running, with tt kind of greenish phlegm coming out frm my nose since they cant come out frm my mouth! I tell u, I must have looked disgusting..feel so embarrassed. Plus there were guys sitting on both my sides. If I could smhow c wad dey were doing I’m sure dey could too!

Argh! So MALU!

Anws, with tt kind of condition I was in I’m sure my compre will be bad one.

HOW? HOW? HOW? HOW? HOW?

I suffered the same fate for all the other pps lor. Most of them were more of “dunnoe how to do n stuck at e middle few tough qns, den no-time for last few easy qns!”

Lose marks! Lose marks! Lose marks!

Woah..realli nid a lot of luck n blessings frm all the gods, Buddha, every kind of god to make sure I wont die too badly.

Alright..shall not dwell on the sad thgs. Promos are over mah..finalli can dun so tense le. PHEW! Although there is still PW to stress over.

There’s smthg I dunnoe whether I wan tell u all abt not..hMMmmm.
nah I’m still observing stuff..coz u noe mah, smtimes girls tend to tink a lot. Smtimes maeb tt person dun mean anithg one..den u tink smthg out of nthg. Haha. I scared sae already u all luff at me. Haha. So better not sae. I noe can already.heex! =P

p/s: iya kt dun kip anouncing abt e cheap skirts leh. mi will paiseh one.haha.plus if not liddat everyone will noe! ;P n hor..my song nthg wrong leh. can hear. ur com smthg wrong bah =P

after 15 daes

2005-09-06T14:53:00.000+08:00

yes i'm back. after 15 daes of no-blog[i wonder wad i was bz with..hmmm.]..i'm BACK!!

[cheers of "yeah!!!" coming frm tern n kt]

yah lah. i noe all of u are as happy as them:
[pts to e left]

actualli i'm just lazing ard at hm,doing sm hmwk, watching sm tv..haven been gg out lorr..-_-'' so deprived rite..i tink so too. i tink i'll probably go out this wkend with my sis bah. i'm like, haven been to orchard for ages can. i tink since tt time i go out with kt they all to buy qk's pressie..omg.like july till now. so it's like 2 mths le lah. i tink i nid a new life man.haha. sound so ABC.

anws..i went to COMEX [computer exhibition] at suntec on sundae..mi n my sis were tinking of buying a laptop coz she'll nid it for sch n also we wont have to fight over e PC at home to do our proj..yup. we were looking at HP,Compaq.was abt to buy a compaq one at 1499..coz we din c ani other brands ard..plus it was cheap with free 4 in 1 printer,maxonline trial for 60 daes. veri tempting i must sae.

wad's more, it was alreadi abt 9.40pm, 40 mins after the exhibition is supposed to end at 9pm.it was e last dae of e exhibition too.

yea..i noe. last min disgusting ppl. haha.

n den we saw fujitsu's booth. which is what i m using to type this entry out =) i shall leave out e details..but i must tell u all smthg veri embarrassing tt happened e moment we decided to buy this laptop. [it's cheap de lah..abt 2000]

after contemplating for quite some time, [well i kind of decided alreadi because i tink this brand is gd..but my sis was still fussing abt e specs of the laptop like it's RAM, space, blah blahh..] we decided to buy it..i guess partly because the salesperson was an apparent newbie trying his best to persuade us by repeating tt this laptop is Made in Japan, while other brands like HP n Compaq are Made in China..n also partly coz it was REALLY late(1020+) n we were e last few customers n they were closing shop. so we finalli decided n e salesperson brought us to the cashier. AND THEN, we saw e other fujitsu salesperson tt talked to us first at the opposite end looking at us. i was asking if they earn commision frm this because if tt's e case then we'll buy frm e other guy..but he said "oh, tt's a different company" Ohmigosh! can u imagine e embarrassment we were under? actualli e fujitsu booth houses like 3 companies frm e small retail shops like those u c in sim lim sq. if u go to sim lim sq. yah but it's tt kind of rival rival de shops where they will try to outcut each other in prices! i tink maeb u all wont understand e embarrassment mi n my sis went thru..coz it's like we wanted to pay already den found out it's a diff company..

oh well..wad's done is done. feel so bad for tt guy. coz he kept looking at us when we were paying. plus we're e onli ones ard n tt company whom we bought the laptop frm were also kaypoying. talking abt being the centre of attraction. -_-''

more boring daes coming along.

p/s: my new love is getty images! love e witty n cute photos they have. =)

c u guys soon!

i hope.

skivving

2005-08-16T21:57:00.000+08:00

hey peeps. haiya i so sad nobodi visits my blog ler. tern i noe u're there![r u?i hope.] haha. my tag board like dead liaox lorr..hello? anws now i'm supposed to be doing my Written Report de Bibliography..damn ma fan one. must acknowledge EVERY SINGLE resource we've used or NOT used inside e report. den i must find e author of e article, webbie, date retrieved, date of rticle..sian sian sian. so now i'm blogging here when i'm not supposed to.

anws..just wanna update u all tt i'm still up n about, still surviving.

yep, somethings happened, but i rather not tok abt it or else this blog will become sad sad agn..haha. yah i've gotten over it le lah.

anws listen out for the song in e background! it's bu de bu ai by pan wei bo n xuan/xian zi, it sooooo nice! look out for my new template soon! i tink my blogskin looks so ugly now..haha. used to tink tt e meaning of the words on the blog was nice but not now..toooo - black.

anws gotta run!

nitex world. =)

short one

2005-08-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

often saw frm other's blogs tt there can b short entries. as short as one line. as short as this.

okie got u fooled rite?...no? at least for 1 sec i guess?

anws, i decided to try writing a short entry. just on wad i saw on msn just now.
heng jo's nick was smthg abt "dun turn e tables,if u wan just spell it out..dun haf to sae it implicitly inside ur blog.."(general meaning)
somehow, one name came to mind: facqueline. (dun ask mi y)
den, after reading BOTH of their blogs, i figured tt i was right.(i tink)
smhow fac asked jo out..she cldnt make it n "lied" abt y she cldnt. shant elaborate. if not i'll b e one on jo's nick.(oops)

n i tot fac came to our class to scold ppl on jo's behalf, just last yr?

beats me.

Founder's Day and Koncert

2005-08-06T19:49:00.000+08:00

after hearing wad kt said..i decided to try n make my blog abit livelier =D

i shadnt tok abt my sad moments(ok actualli it's not realli tt many times, and not tt veri sad)

yep n tern this is for u! the founder's dae pictures! =)
p/s:everyone except zijuan n fawaz were nt in e picture..they left with their parents earlier

speaking abt founder's dae..wo man huai qi wang de go there de lorr..coz i tot, wah got pop vouchers can take..not so bad lah can buy cds..or sm stationery.plus it's e 1st time i go on stage to receive prize ma..den plus can c e rest..so quite excited..den come to e actual thg..after i went up stage, took the prize,shook the principal's hand, said thanks and remembered to bow to the audience, i went back to my seat at table no..14 issit?i dunnoe cant rmb. anw i immed open to c wad's inside the envelope, and to my utter disappointment/horror/dismay, there was ONLY A CERTIFICATE inside! nothing else! no voucher! no money! = (

but e extravagant dinner sort of made up for it lah..it was a 10-course meal a la wedding dinner style:

p/s: tt's mrs teh n ms yao btw
pps: e green table means it's halal..or vegetarian..i forgot which
if i rmb correctly, it was

Cold platter
"Shark fin" soup with BEAN SPROUTS
a flatten chicken with it's wings n head detached, but taste seemingly like fish cake
another soup, this time with chicken, hong zao, and BIG mushrooms
"abalone" with veggies n tt BIG mushrooms agn
Steamed fish (this was nice! n jianmin was damn funny coz he kept eating e fish quietly after everyone finished n another dish was on e table)
Prawns( this was nice as well..veri crunchy n fresh, plus it was peeled already!)
Lotus leaf wrapped gluttinous rice (i was too full to eat this.)
Yam dessert (or Orh-Ni)
Fruits platter

okies despite e weird opening dishes, overall it wasnt tt bad..just tt e waitress din replace our plates n bowls after each dish(she only replaced e plate once,like after e 5th dish) so we ended up having to use plates tt are like full of gravy or wastes frm e previous dish.plus our waitress for our table is an old auntie..i saw sm young men serving other tables lorr..hrmph.haha.

while eating, we even had performances by the wushu, malay dance, guzheng, and choir!

of coz, e meeting of old frens means photo taking sessions!

the reunion of the 2 best frens: unfortunately the pictures all look veri blur because for some reasons, my hand cldn't stop trembling -_-''

c tt? CHEN JUNQI 2004 wow!

now, for Koncert (Tpjc band concert) 5/08 :

went there to support siti primarily..saw quite a few familiar faces of tpjc..those i noe i saw b4 in tpjc but dunoe them those kind..even saw daanesh(with charlyn). but too bad onli got chance to wave hi. saw tt er xin fish ball as well. in a pink polo tee with geraldine n suky. geraldine was wearing pink too! (yikes! are they....i dun wan to tink abt it)

me n qk in e audience seat..

siti with the rose we gave her..e rose looked pathetically small n short though.sorri siti!

i went to the concert with qk n laura..n my gosh laura changed alot in her dressing! take a look at this!

she's in PINK from top to bottom! ohmigosh! she said she's more aware of her dressing coz she wants to look her best all e time,in case by ani chance she sees sm shuai ge..haha.

after e concert we were hungry n bought e ice cream frm e "ice cream man"..all flavours were sold out except for mocha chip,durian and sweet corn so we bought mocha chip..n ate it at e bridge near vch..laura helped us take this pic with e nice nice night scene as e backgrd.thanks laura!

p/s: yes kt i bought my green jaket le! frm this fashion.. o'-'o ..coz i cldnt find other places tt sell tt..!

well tt's all guys. hoped u enjoy the photos galore and take care!
happy national dae! =D

Dover Park Hospice

2005-07-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

"We add lives to their days, not days to their lives."

this was wad the social worker at dover park hospice told us when being interviewed. i found it very meaningful, so decided to share it with u guys.

todae i went to dover park hospice for a PW interview..e place is veri far lorr..near TTS..at Novena Mrt there. a lil ulu lah..haf to walk up sm slope n sm driveway den u can c tt place tucked in a corner..n it's quite saddening to c all the sickly patients there..they r practically just waiting for their "day" to come lorr. From the social worker, Jenny, apparently all the patients stay in the hospice to spend the last 3 mths of their lives there..and these patients are those who are terminally ill, and un curable. Well it just saddens me to see old ah ma and ah gongs lying helplessly on the beds..

kinda reminds me of my granny.

oh yea btw if u're wondering y we went there to interview..it's because my project is abt proposing to implement blogging in homes/hospices to let the feelings these grps of ppl to be better known to the public. but apparently it's not veri feasible in hospices..because the manpower is limited..n the elderly are less likely to open up n allow their life story to be publish online for everyone to see. yup..i understand tt. next wk, we're going to interview a muslim orphanage. woah next wk so many events: wed-nas founder's day(aka speech dae) fri - interview+ siti's band concert =)

suddenly..i'm just tinking of y alot of jc students must haf bgr..den ...y i dun haf? OOPS.haha. i guess smtimes everyone just needs a companion lah. u all dun tink tt i dun bother abt such things. actualli i'm veri disturbed by it, just tt i dun show it.i'm actualli quite a private person i guess.cos smtimes i just feel i nid a guy's shoulders for mi to lie on when i feel tired, accompany me on the long journey home, smone i'm comfortable talking to n he will be willing to listen to my nonsense n paranoidness.

actually..deep inside i'm afraid tt i'll end up marrying my 1st guy n become a housewife.

oh no.

happie birthdae siti!

2005-07-23T19:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITI!
n it was our 1st meeting at starbucks [veri aptly named i wld sae.haha.]
I n Qk ordered Chocolate Frappucino Blended Cream, Siti ordered e Caramel one plus rhumba[sm choc chips] it cost 5.90..ex lor i wld sae.ya cheapskate me..but i'm not someone who will spend so much on drinks de lah somemore it tasted like Mac's Chocolate Ice Cream Sundae. -_-''
our drinks![ siti's,qk's,mine]

siti doesn't like taking photos.haha.

yeah we made her smile!

posing for a starbucks ad =D

anws..on fri i felt realli bad agn. we had this cultural concert to celebrate racial harmony dae..den at e end of e concert they played e mass dance song n everyone got super high n started dancing..okie 1st song ,whiney whiney, i still cld rmb sm of e moves n followed[quite badly,ppl left foot out i right foot out, point right hand i point left hand] so had sm fun lah..den they started dancing to other songs which i din learn[cos i skipped O2,rmb?] so i just stood n watched..den liru super high also, wan dance to e songs so i sort of followed. den e last song i totally cannot follow de..den i just stood n watch lor. actualli by this time abt half e ppl had left e hall, but liru was there dancing happily so i cldnt just leave ya? so i stood n watched. n felt like i din fit into e picture. yet agn. haix. den after tt, coz i meeting sy to go hm toged, i asked liru if she wans to wait with mi for sy coz she had biz bluc de exco meeting..den liru actualli agreed to wait toged while we were watching e concert, but later she said actualli she dun mind gg hm alone. so she went hm lorr. leaving mi to wait for sy in e sch canteen alone. sm of my classmates were still in sch coz their bags were there, but i decided not to sit at tt table coz frankly i dunoe how to face them. so i took my bag n left for another table. n waited for wad seemed like eons..felt out of the whole bustling in e sch canteen agn. haix. when will i not feel like tt leh. haix.

p/s: BTW..hu changed e blog skin of e 4e1 blog ah. eee-yer. so bad e person. my tagboard gone, den i wan go in change back den realised i 4got e password..i tot it's e same as e username? anyway..i dun wan change le la. i customised alot on e skin leh.took mi quite long..so i dun feel like wasting time when ppl will just go in n change.difficult to suit everyone's taste lah. maeb sm1 dun like it..but, tt person just replaced e template like tt..i got no backup lor.. =( just feel sad lah.

it's TT feeling again.

2005-07-18T18:06:00.000+08:00

heys peeps. it's been a long time..to reward those hu had been patiently waiting for the next time i update my blog, here's a little treat for u!

links to my pic galleries! =D
[wad..did u sae smthg like "wad..." i din hear anithg! =)]

http://qkbirthday.mypicgallery.com

go haf a look! esp if u miss seeing mi! haha.

http://myz800i.mypicgallery.com

photos taken by my z800i [tt 3G fone]

this is liru..my vj bestie i've told u all abt..just tot u all wanted to c how she looks like =D

Now..down to the serious stuff.
These are my grades for mid yrs this yr-
Math: 58 [ C?]
Chem: 46[F?]
Phy: 69[this is B I’m sure.]
Econs: 41[this is O I’m sure as well.]

i haven got back my GP..i had quite high hopes on it, coz i tot it was not tt difficult but everyone one else said it was tough.den must b i smthg wrong le lorr.but my tutor said there were sm hits n misses..sm supposed to do well but din so..n those hu werent tt gd did quite well. i dunnoe which i belong to though..hope i will do well lor..ged a C? yah tt'll b nice..i must sae i was realli shocked by my econs results lah. depressed for a dae.i guess i'm just not gd at humanitites bah..esp those nid to write a lot of essays de..i totally misintepreted e 1st essay qn lorr. i tot it was like one of e past yr qn which i haf read e answer scheme to, so i just "vomitted" everythg inside! turns out it was irrelevant n totally out. i got 2/13 lah. how worst can it ged?

these few daes after resuming sch i'm starting to feel pessimistic agn..coz i c ppl ard mi all fitting in nicely to their own classes n to this sch..n i'll be like..do i realli belong to vjc?
yes i noe smtimes it feels gd to tell ppl tt felicia chin,michelle chong n joanne peh are my "seniors"..but how long can tt "gd feeling" lasts? smtimes i feel like,as my results haf clearly showed, tt i dun belong there..i'm not supposed to b here u noe?

smtimes i wonder y i spend an hr + everyday just to travel frm sch to home.
i wonder wad made me choose this sch in e 1st place.issit b'coz i just wanted to try or issit tt i tot tt an agg of 9 is so great tt it made mi big in e head, tinking tt i can, finally, go to a "ming xiao(famous sch)"?
i wonder y did i leave ALL my gd frens elsewhere.
wad's e pt of me being here when i am just a nobody? wont i b better off smwhere else?

Friends are drifting too fast away from me;please slow down,for I am not ready for my new life yet.

[wow so poetic! hehe. i'm so proud of myself for having written tt out.okies..blogging does help in ur english.haha.]

anws..happie early birthdae to siti! i hope u c this..i guess i wont b updating anitime soon..so i'll wish u now 1st! i look forward to our meeting on thurs! c u n qk!

you gan er fa

2005-06-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

these daes i realli haf alot of feelings n thoughts to convey..it's like i'm on the road n i'll tink abt the thgs i c n b like"hey i cld write abt this in my blog!" tt kinda feeling..den when i finally sit down in front of my computer, i realise i cannot tink of anithg to write. if not i'll just b writing abt random feelings or e realli impt thgs tt happen.
like i tink kui ji en frm my sassy neighbour is realli handsome n cute [heex]
n i worrie abt my upcoming mid yrs which i haven realli studied for,
n i'm happy tt i'm gg to haf an outing to orchard wif my girlies,which leads mi to feel bad tt i haven been there since the start of the hols.
i'm also tinking abt jj's mini showcase.haha enjoyed it.[i noe u wld sae so too kt!]
iya alot of thgs lah..i tink if i go on the list will bore u all.haha.
because i'm dun haf tt writer's flair like what the-most-famous-blogger-in-singapore, Xiaxue has.
u c, i've just went to view her blog yesterdae after seeing it on newpaper on sundae..n coz i needed to find an adult blogger to interview for my PW..so i went to c lor. gosh was i shocked by her crude yet sometimes intelligent posts, her bhb n bitchy-ness, n most imptly her Photoshop skills! let me explain:

1. crude yet sometimes intelligent posts: well i cant explain it myself wif my kind of lang. i dun wan to go so low as to sae wad words she uses.
2. bhb n bitchy-ness :
Quoted frm xiaxue's abt me:
"My PSLE is 269.
As if that says anything at all.
I am also smart, beautiful, and a total sex goddess (or so I say). I am short by mortal standards (shrugs and waves hand in a nonchalant godly manner) but that doesn't bother me. I am also mean and bitchy. Some girls say they are mean & bitchy too, but they are actually mild like hand soap - while I am the real thing, baby! I look at you in the eye and tell you you look like a blind La Salle student dressed you up. Who cares about your feelings? My world revolves around me. *smirks*
I despise girls who have no character and backbones of their own (aka "shu nu"), and I despise stupid guys who like these girls even more. HMPF! My dream is to kill all of them and pretend it was a gas explosion. Alternately, I could transport all the stupid people into a spaceship and send them to Uranus by telling them that Earth is facing a meteor collision.
One day, I also aspire to cut off everyone's eyelashes, so that mine will be the longest. "

3. her amazing photoshop skills:

in case u din realise this is miss singapore universe 2004,sandy chua[hu rmbs her? tell mi?i dun.haha] apparently xiaxue tinks she is "fugly" so decided to gif her a "plastic surgery" using Photoshop.the 1st is e "after plastic surgery" kinda pix. dun u tink tt e diff is veri BIG? e eyes, e nose,e mouth haf all been tampered with. which leads mi to to tink: so all e beautiful nice pictures of herself are tampered with lah?
i can vaguely figure out how she looks like in real life.

well this is her in her own blog. mei hor?
but i tink photoshop-ped de. she admits she photoshop-s all her pics, n she cannot live without makeup.
[wad if one dae i become like tt..?oh no.]

haha. been toking so much abt her. i seem like an avid fan of her dun i? i seem to noe alot of stuff. just frm reading her blog yesterdae..[i tink i will frequent her blog.haha. e irony of it all.well,treat it as pure entertainment.]
actualli as i'm writing this i'm worrying tt she will one dae chance upoon my blog because it contains "xiaxue"her nick, n she will by some chance, go to google to search for her name,n c this.
it's not so bad if she sees this. it's bad coz she will publish this as an entry in her blog using the mean-est words she can find.
rmb i sae i wan to interview an adult blogger?
guess wad? i'm considering her. well e biggest deterrance is that my english is not as gd as her, she may see my email as smthg..i dunnoe..funnie? n tt she may publish it in her blog agn! i dun wna to b embarrassed u noe. but i'm hoping she's not tt mean. i tink she's mean when u're mean to her in the 1st place.

let's hope so.

anws i just wanna put pics on my entry todae coz i tink it's kinda plain. tt one above was a cake i ate just now. cute as e packaging.like a crystal ball.haha. it's yum! sweet,n e cake was soft n creamy..i tink it's a pudding or smthg..haha!
this is mini chocolate. my sis. she's working now...so she'll haf it ltr when she comes back. yum yum!

todae we changed our vacuum cleaner as well.haha u must b tinking y m i telling u this. coz i tink it's e cutest vacuum cleaner i've seen!

see! so cute rite? haha. so bright..! e past vacuums we had were both green[coincidentally]

ok i tink i'm abit over liao.haha. todae i'm like "you gan er fa" [have feelings to express] just some random thoughts lah.

ben adams released his single in UK liaox.he's changed quite abit. i dunnoe if i still like him.

i'm tinking whether there's ani tv shows to watch ltr..

i'm tinking abt "my" 3G fone tt's gonna come on 3rd july in e morning! everythg's been confirmed le. wow wad m i gonna use it for? i tink i cant use 3G functions leh. like watch videos n stuff. coz i haf to ged tt singtel plan rite? so..no use lah?oh no.haha. well can take nice pictures.

i'm tinking abt an entrepreneurship competition tt i haf signed up for. it's next mon tues n wed, at sci centre. supporters can come on tues n wed. apparently there'll b an sms voting session for the best grp kinda thg. so,anione free? =D

i'm tinking tt i shld end my entry here coz i tink everyone's bored by my nonsensical alreadi.

RSVP

2005-06-09T14:49:00.000+08:00

doreen's lesson for the dae :

R.S.V.P. stands for a French phrase, "répondez, s'il vous plaît," which means "please reply."

i just realised i dunnoe the meaning of RSVP even though i alwaes c it in invitations. haha. now i noe. so i wan to teach u all lor. educate the public. haha.but maeb u all noe le hor. hmmmms. anws. tt's all for todae's lesson.haha.

anws i just checked..i've eaten 5 brains. haha. sorrie to trick u all la. just play for fun ma. c how mani viewers i haf also. coz i alwaes c kt n siti tagging so i tink there's onli 2 viewers lah. so which means there's 5 rite? haha. i'm more or less glad to hear tt.

i tink todae is my lucky dae =D
i entered sm nokia n 933 contest n i won a pair of tix to go watch JJ's showcase at temasek poly on fri[yes,tml].
and i just received an email saying that i got selected for the experience 3G thg organised by TIME n Sony Ericsson. if all goes well i get to try use sony ericsson's 3G phone for 3 daes frm july3 - july5! so lucky rite! hahax.

anws gtg..byes!~ i m realli behind my study schedule. -_-'' i m supposed to haf finished maths n gone on to phy but i haven finish maths. but anws i just go to phy lor. n i'm veri slow n i tink abt gg out,watching tv, sleeping all the time. argh. how?!

brain eater

2005-06-06T19:02:00.000+08:00

click here . i've posted my entry there so u haf to click it to c =D

what kinda girl are u?

2005-06-04T16:57:00.000+08:00

You're the innocent girl next door. You are
friendly, cheerful, kind, and happy. You like
to spread your happiness around making people
feel warm and joyous. To do this you like to
bake cookie and muffins while giving kind
compliments. Plus you actually give apples to
your teachers. You're pure and innocent and
most likely haven't broken many rules. Everyone
loves you. How can they not?

What kind of girl are you? (with pix!)
brought to you by Quizilla

i saw this frm ying's blog. this is mi ah? haha.u all think so? i tink coz i chose mostly 1st options in the quiz.can c tt e options lead to tt. but i also got choose sm other choices leh. n i dun tink i'm TT pure n innocent bah.

i tink i'm a lil like tt girl+this one below. not tt mi tt inteligent but abt e loner part.so true!

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy at times but friendly, and you are never weak and always independent. You are incredibly intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a talent for many things (sports, music, art). You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy the simple things. Like hanging out with friends and watching movies at home. But you're sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just can't seem to break into the crowd and be noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing and speak out when you have more to say. Don't hide behind your books and sports and computer, get out there and get noticed. You also have deep desires in life and feel vunerable and alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What helps me to express feelings and dreams that I can't say to people, is through my writting. Maybe you should try.

manicures!

2005-05-31T15:42:00.000+08:00

i just did my own manicure..haha. but i regret after doing it cos i spent abt 3 hrs applying and removing e nail polish cos i always cannot get it right..plus now my nails are so delicate i dun feel like doing any manual work[eg wash bowls,carry thgs, write. =P] !! tt's veri terrible considering i've got like 4 wks ahead of mi..oops. anw i din realli do a gd job lah. i wanted to do a "french manicure" kinda thg with e white tip but my white nail polish is too old n it has turned veri sticky.. so i just tried my best to apply e tip lor..looks awful upclose. but nvm frm far looks nice can le. haha. 1st try mah..practice makes perfect =D

below are pics of my foot. haha. i did pedicure as well. n i stick nailart on it!~ =D but i tink e effect not veri nice. e black black thg is a butterfly but it looks like it's sm dirt on my toe.agree?anws hopefully u all c my big fat ugly toes wont puke .. tt's y i put e pics alot smaller than e pics of my hands.

haha i tink i better go le..coz todae veri unproductive. i wanted to do maths de..kk hafta go do le..cya all!~ wan do manicure noe hu to look for le hor! =D

1st dae of hols

2005-05-28T18:00:00.000+08:00

heys ppl..i'm online again!~ haha.
e last wk of sch was a "half-dae" sch..heex. ppl were shouting for "half-day! full-day!" in e middle of morning assemblies. realli funnie lorr..end up on fri ppl were blowing whistle n clapping hands n shouting "half-day!" as though it was a cheer.we had a half daes on wed n fri..wed being e dae of e soccer finals. so we were released at 10.25 but we were required to go to e nat stadium at 4.45 to support our sch lah.vj against mj. n if u didnt noe,we lost to mj, despite being e champs for more than 3 yrs[i tink]..everyone was veri dejected at e end of games because we tot we cld win n it was like an obvious result kinda thg. smmore i tink it's e 1st time mj had ani sports team in e finals...so..haix.dun b too sure of urself smtimes ah.actualli in e beginning i alreadi tot it wld b a tough fight.coz dere's 2 national players in mj.so cannot belittle dem ma. anw e score was 1-1, we played into extra time but e score remains so we went into penalty shoot-out, n we lost with 6-5 ..dey kicked in 6 out of 7, we onli got 5. tt's cos a certain player kicked wae high n it went beyond e goal post can. argh. but too dark[it was 7+pm n dey din on e stadium lights.wonder y.] so cldnt c hu it was..tink he will b hated n he'll be in remorse.haha. okies tt's too serious. anws national 2nd also gd wad. rite? anws b4 i went to e stadium i went to nas, den tpjc..[trespassing.heex] it's fun to c my juniors at nas n qk,siti n laura at tpjc..i'm glad i went back to nas instead of gg to class outing wif my jc class[05S42,pronounced4/2].. i dunnoe where dey went..parkway ba..tink watch movie ah..dunnoe.if i went i surely will b veri sian de lor.i'll be e loner there i tell u..coz liru din go also. she got cca.

i tink i'm veri pathetic rite. like in class if liru not there den i cannot survive like tt. argh.

fri was a half dae as well. i tink coz it's e last dae of sch + our hockeygirls got national 1st, hockey boys national 2nd + e principal,mrs chan was remorseful tt she said"..dun b ridiculous" when ppl asked for full dae on thurs[we lost e soccer match rmb?]...mrs chan said it wasnt a full dae coz e canteen vendors din agree to it[wad..dey actualli followed their opinion? dey're like minority in e sch lor]because they bought e food le dun wan it to go bad..so she asked us to patronise the canteen after e early dismissal, at 9.50. okie la it's veri gd liaox. u noe my sch ah..wont like tell u there'll be a full dae off den inform u tt u dun haf to report to sch..they'll onli announce it at morning assembly on tt dae. so it's like u come to sch,go assembly, den go home. like duh rite. but i haven experienced tt yet. if i noe it'll be a full dae b4hand[dey sae u can tell when u c all e canteen stalls closed] i'll just not come to sch lor..dun wanna waste my time travelling to n fro.
anws i went for e saf band concert at vch yest..there's a guest conductor james barnes, hu's also a composer. he conducted all his pieces yest. ermm..quite nice la sm of e songs. there's one which is 43 mins long lor.omg.i saw sm ppl fell asleep during tt piece. haha..i went to e concert wif siti,n 2 of my juniors..there were sm nas band seniors..including a certain"repelling force"[quoted frm ashraf hu was there as well.he asked mi y i went despite tt force.actualli in e 1st place i din noe lah.plus i went to c e concert..shldnt b bothered by such thgs.so i just ignored him lor.pretend i din c him. but i still din like seeing siti toking to him..

anws todae is 1st dae of hols..yeah! yah la as if i'm happy at all. can feel e stress for my mid yrs le lor. dunoe how to finish studying..i'm most afraid of my econs n gp..n they're both on e 1st dae lor =( gonna spend this hols studying i swear! but also haf to gif sm time for gatherings,shopping la..
kks cya!~

backie

2005-05-20T14:48:00.000+08:00

Heys ppl..yah I noe it’s been a LONG time since I last blogged.[yes kangting u can visit my blog ler.haha.just revived it so it’s no longer dead yah?] Maeb u all dunnoe y..but it’s coz my grandma passed awae on apr 28, thurs..so my labour dae long wkend was spent at her funeral. I was reali veri saddened by this. =( it’s like all of a sudden we hear tt she’s hospitalized(tt was e dae b4 she passed awae)..den next moment she juz passed awae..realli to sudden
Apr 28
3 days after my birthdae
It will be like this for the rest of my life.
How can I ever haf a HAPPY birthdae when I noe tt my grandma’s death anni is just 3 daes after my birthdae?
=(

I’m actually now in my sch’s comp lab typing this. Using word doc btw..coz I dun wan ppl to c mi using blogger ma. Haha. Mi 1st time come into this place actually..den come in liao c everyone den I was a bit shocked.haha. coz it’s like a small classroom full of ppl using com. dunnoe y lah . just shocked n scared maeb. Coz i’m alone in sch waiting for my make up lecture to start at 3.45 .. got abt 1.5 hrs till den..it’s not tt shuyun isn’t in sch..but she has lesson till abt 3.20 I tink. So I’m all alone by myself now.

It’s always like tt when I’m waiting for make up lectures to start. Coz my fren is 1st intake de..haix. speaking of which I shld b veri ashamed of myself. Coz I practically onli haf one fren in e class lah. I alwaes stick with her den we do almost everythg toged. But make up lectures we cant go toged ma.It’s like if I’m not with her, I’m practically alone.
-_-‘’ it’s not like I dun try toking to dem..but e wae dey tok to mi n e wae dey tok to e others are diff. like veri restrained n serious. Den I tok also feel veri awkward so might as well not tok.. n I also dunnoe wad to sae to dem smtimes. I’m like, super pathetic can..argh. cant stand it smtimes. U ppl shld noe ma. If I jus noe u..i’ll be lke super restrained n quiet de. I’m like, u tok to mi den I’ll tok to u. I dun usually try to start a conversation. Smmore I’m in an environment tt I haven really gotten used of. Like smtimes I will still tink: “Am I really in this sch?” I dun feel like I’m in here lor. Everythg sill feels kinda surreal.argh..smtimes can really feel veri lonely lor. Den wan to tok also dunnoe find hu to tok. =(

N ah..i feel tt I’m drifting awae frm shuyun..=( coz I dun c her all e time nowadaes. Onli morning b4 assembly we’ll meet in n sit in canteen with jasmine, huimin, mark n jianmin[jianmin doesn’t tok at all de lor.dunnoe y he’s there. He didn’t used to meet us den suddenly he come join us in e morning.yongyi has managed to find his own clique as well so he just sits wif dem in e morning. Actually all of dem haf their own cliques I tink.like huimin n jasmine are like so gd wif their frens le.just tt we sit toged in e morning lor] But we just do hmwk n tok abt trivial stuff..den coz shuyun’s class is totally all new intake de, so they really can bond n mix together lor. Den I tink she’s having a gd time wif dem. Like she’s as shou as with mi with dem lor. For mi ah.i’m just shou with one person lor..-_-‘’
Anws ..e bestie I was toking abt is liru, n ..erm..I reali feel like she’s veri much like qk lorr. Haha. Let’s c..she likes to speak in mandarin.,wears braces, specs, alwaes aim to do veri well in tests n hmwk n even napfa, kinda competitive[I guess everyone here is like dis.like to compare..i tink we’re more of like conditioned to b this wae]..den if she does badly she’ll be veri sad abt it for a long time. Den she’s kinda blur too.. smtimes cannot understand wad e qn saying..or wad other ppl saying.. n her dad also a taxi driver eh.heex. Sorrie ah qk I tink e wae I’m saying it makes it seem tt dey’re bad pts. But I dun mean it tt wae okies. Onli saying how similar e both of u all are. =P

But she’s veri different frm qk in a wae also..she’s veri veri sociable..will just like make frens with strangers sitting next to her in e LT..or make frens with her frens’ frens. U noe wad I mean? Like she now noes shuyun n tim le lor. N I dun even noe her frens. Funnie how she can b so friendly. But I will feel left out n neglected at times lor. Coz she will like walk walk..den sae hi to this one, wave hi to tt one..chat chat wif another one. Den I’ll b like waiting next to her..U ged my pt.

suddenly i'm kinda stuck.dunnoe wad to sae le. now it's 3 pm..got abt 1/2 hr.

Just now a guy on e next row was whispering to his fren abt e guy in front of mi. he looks like a yr 2 but is playing neopets. Haha. So I’m scared tt ppl will see mi doing this sooner or later so I beter finish up soon.

Suddenly I just feel like I cant c my classmates now be my classmates. Dunnoe y in 4e1 I din feel tt wae. Maeb coz I had a grp of frens instead of a fren. Haha. So now I must like try to haf a grp of frens but I dunnoe how. Smtimes I will tink tt it wld be gd to haf a boyfren here.haha. coz he’ll b wif mi all e time wad. But too bad no one wans mi. n I wan de all attached liaox. Haha.=P

Tml I’ll be gg with 3 of my classmates to support liru in her harmonica band concert..3 of dem all guys. abit worried coz I tink will leng diao u noe. Haha. Awkward atm . I tink I’ll bring camera n take pics wif liru. Den u all c if she has “qk de gan jue” speaking of e harmonica concert I’m abit unhappy abt. Coz I said I wan go but cannot find ppl. Den she will ask mi everydae to ask everyone I noe to go wif mi..she’s like u’d nv noe..smtimes surprising dey will agree to come de. Tt’s y I asked u all abt it lor. Den she noes I gg bak to nas to collect cert she also asked mi to ask anione I c there. Abit over lor I tink..cannot find means cannot find wad. U cant like ask mi to ask everyone de wad. Argh. Den end up coz got a rather “close” de classmate gg so tt’s y I’m gg.. my $8!~ =( nowadaes dunnoe y I feel so poor u noe. Tink too much money spent on tidbits in sch. E bkshop sells a lot of munchies lor. Veri nice to eat de. Tpjc didn’t haf it. Onli got e vending machine. Here is haf both vending machine n a mini provision shop. Heex. But e auntie got AP. E old uncle much better.haha.

Kk..i shall stop here le. Wanted to study to spend my 1.5 hrs meaningfully but I decided to come here n blog instead.oops. haha. Die...dunnoe when I can catch up n understand everythg. I’m already worrying abt my mid yrs lor. Dunnoe how to study so many thgs. Maths we r tested till trigo n induction..chem is until ionic equilibrium, phy is till thermodynamics. Econs is till market structure. I tink we’re far ahead of other schs? Not veri sure..i onli noe I will not b able to study finish. Argh. Bad premonition[wah I dunoe how I noe how to spell this chim word.haha.okies maeb not chim to u but to mi it is can? =] ] now it’s 3.25..gotta go meet shuyun to go lecture le.

Byes ppl!~

happy birthdae to me!~

2005-04-25T19:02:00.000+08:00

heys peeps!~ it's my birthdae todae !~ so happie..haha. okies yest had a gd time wif e girlies..had lunch at BK..sorrie tt it has to b so budget la..realli broke..dunnoe y so broke also. anws..yah had a fun time catching up wif u all..n e photo-taking sessions where everyone else is staring la.haha. but nvms they dunnoe us.ritex? haha.

anws todae i received alot of sms-es..i reply until my fone low batt lor. qk e best ah. call mi den ask henrick to wish mi happie bdae. like.. duh lor. funnie la she..wan matchmake issit. i tell u la qk..it's not possible lor. i noe he ren u as nu-er le.but tt doesn't mean he n mi r...u noe? i tink i sound too serious.yah u wan tease mi shi okie de la.used to it le..like forever kena teased.haha. since pri sch lor.haha.pathetic life i haf. [actualli i tink since henrick n qk chat so much..both online n off..dey r e ones hu r more likely to be...hahax]

to ada,yuyu,shuyun,regina[hu shares e same bdae as mi!] hayati,qiongkuan,yingying,huiying,kangting,henrick,fawaz[both forced by qk i blieve..but thanks la qk..i appreciate it realli.],ruiqin,yingwei,joniece : thanks for e sms!!~ realli made my dae..coz i wasnt tt happie in sch todae la. coz at times still feel left out n out of place..so it's nice to read ur msgs..makes mi feel remebered =)

to siti,qk,kt,sy,laura,wq,wendy,esther,jacqueline,liru[vjc close fren],hayati[she mailed mi a parcel lor.so touched!]: thanks for e pressies!~ luv them ALL =D

anws..todae ah..okies la. my bdae not realli a loud one wif a bang..juz a simple one.coz liru rmb-ered my bdae lor.dunnoe y she noes. but yah she gave mi a pressie n sorta spread e msg tt it's my bdae.so a few ppl wished my happie bdae lor. den nearing e end of e dae, we had a phy tutorial..wich my class hates la.den e class rep[aka CT rep.CT= Civics Tutorial grp i tink] sae "let's sing doreen a birthdae song okie,todae's her birthdae.let's sing 17 times okie..so tt it will eat up mrs chan's lesson.." den b4 e teacher came in dey started singing..den sing n sing n sing..each time it bcums softer n softer..hahax. den sing until 8 times everyone stopped. but funnie la.i was like luffing throughout. but i feelit's abit fake? dunnoe eh. coz they b tt nv realli sae anithg la.den after phy tut wah so concerned lor.sae wan to celebrate by eating a meal outside..sae wan go canteen sing e remaining 9 times..but i juz smiled n sae dun wan la..den dey jiu din insist le lor..den after tt also like bo chap mi..haix. dunoe la.maeb mi too sensitive..but yahs.

[kt is hurrying mi to finish blogging soon] haha.so yahs. todae e last period was a one period pe..den mi n sy decided to go run ard e sch to keep fit.i tink i'm fatter le lor. sit too much.all e fats at my butt now la. like so beeeg lor.hahax. anws we ran ard e sch abt 1 1/2 rds..we walked abit in e middle la. quite nice to run actualli.n i din reali feel exhausted or anithg.satisfied wif myself..haha.

kk ppl tt's all for todae le..
oh yah forgot to make a wish. i wish tt :

ALL my frens will b happie, do well in wadever dey're doing(studies,competiton etc)
I WILL Be Happie.

..yah tt's all lor.

smtimes e simplest thg is enuf...

anyways here's e add for e pics taken on sun..spread it okies. to wq,laura etc..
http://doreensbirthday.MyPicGallery.com

2005-04-18T19:04:00.000+08:00

figured out tt this path n this life is wad i've chosen..so however hard n trecherous[issit correct?] e journey will b..i promise i will try to persevere..

because it's my life, n i decide.

Don't think that you can tell me what to think

I'm the one who knows what's good for me

And I'm stating my independence

Gonna take the road I'm gonna take

And I'm gonna make my own mistakes

It's my life

I decide

I decide how I live

I decide who I love

Choice is mine

And no one gets to make my mind up

I decide

I decide where I go

What I need

Who I knowI'm the one who's runnin' my life

I decide

Don't think you're ever gonna hold me down

Couldn't do it then can't do it now

I'm kickin' down all the fences

I'm gonna do it all and do too much

And if I mess the whole thing up

It's my ride

I decide

I decide how I live

I decide who I love

Choice is mine

And no one gets to make my mind up

I decideI decide where I go

Where I sleep

Who I know

I'm the one who's runnin' my life

I decide

I'm taking my own chances

And I'm finding my own answers

I'm only answering to me

And that's the way it's gonna be

I decide

Oh yeah

I decide

I decide how I live

I decide who I love

Choice is mine

And no one gets to make my mind up

I decideI decide where I go

Where I sleep

Who I knowI'm the one who's runnin' my life

I decide

I decide how I live

I decide who I love

Choice is mine

And no one gets to make my mind up

I decide

Lindsay Lohan - I Decide

Chem test - omg!!

2005-04-18T18:47:00.000+08:00

haiz..todae had a chem lecture test..i tell u..it's e worst ever test i've had since like start of sch la.i nv had a test when i m totally unsure of all my ans..n e method to do it. so depressing u noe.. =( i tink i will ged a single digit marks lor..it's over 40 marks. can u imagine?!

frm e looks of it..i dun tink i will do well for mid yr exams lor. dun even noe how to pass. -_-''

anws..b4 i 4ged.must tell u all wad happen to mi on fri. veri unlucky lor i tink..i had a chem spa makeup in e afternoon..den we were doing titrations la.den perhaps i was in a rush to finish cleaning my apparatus n rush to econs lect.coz i'm like 5 mins late alreadi..so rush rush rush,.i tried to invert e burette wif KMnO4 into e sink to clear e excess ma..den i din squeeze e rubber tubing tight enuf n e KMnO4 splashed on my blouse n skirt.my god lor.but lucky my uni de material like abit "waterproof"..so it didnt immediately settle on e cloth..den in my haste i juz use my hands to wipe it off..but a small patch stained my blouse le..haix. wash also cant ged it off. n har..my partner put her measuring cylinder near e edge of e bench at e sink den i was like hurrying to wash stuff so i din c n pushed it down. -_-'' n it broke. so sway rite. i seldom do exp so frantic one lor..chem is like not for mi..iya dunnoe la..after e chem test..i feel like dropping chem lorr..c how la.

anws on my way home on bus 12 i saw zhiwei on e bus..den at nas de bus stop saw wendy got off frm e 12 tt was in front of mine..but din ged chance to tok to dem la. but ah..i muz sae zhiwei is like v funnie lor. he c mi on e bus like not shocked at all de leh. like expected liddat..den juz wave hi n bye..funnie rite. hmm maeb u all dun tink so lah.but i tink so lah..haha.

okiex anws i shall stop here lo..start of a new wk..got lots of tutorials n assignments to rush..haix. cya ppl! take care! =)

simple plan - welcome to my life

2005-04-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

heys peeps.i noe it's been a loong loong time since i last updated..so i've decided to come online n update u all abit..but seriously i dunnoe wad to tok abt la.maeb i dun haf anithg to tok abt..or maeb i haf too mani to tok abt tt i dunnoe where to start.

anws..i was listening to e radio todae n i heard this song..tot it was rather meaningful coz it kinda describes wad i feel.but it's weird coz this is a song by simple plan..n ppl hu noe mi shld noe tt i'm not into rock bands but boybands.hahax..wan to noe wad song it is? read on..

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna runaway?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face

No one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

Never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

1st 5 daes.

2005-04-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

i tink i'm autistic.

according to dictionary.com , autistic means :
A psychiatric disorder of childhood characterized by marked deficits in communication and social interaction, preoccupation with fantasy, language impairment, and abnormal behavior, such as repetitive acts and excessive attachment to certain objects. It is usually associated with intellectual impairment.

okie maeb i'm slightly autistic?

i seem to haf problems making frens n interating wif ppl..coz i'm e kind hu listens rather den tok..u ppl shld noe rite..? so it's more diff now tt my class ppl are like frm gd schs la..so they're e kind hu r veri veri vocal.den everyone in e class will like tok to everyone else..den mi.i onli mix wif a certain grp of gers.ok it's not realli mix.i practicalli jux follow dem ard n reply or luff when there's a nid to..

so in sch rite..i'll feel veri veri out of place.as though my classmates cant b bothered abt my exisitence.like i'm there den i'm there.if i'm not, they wldnt care..

left out,forgotten,...

that sounds familiar rite..like tt alwaes happens to mi.1st 3 mths tpjc i also like tt..omg..=(

of cos besides prob of frens..cca n studies haf also become probs..coz i dunnoe wad cca to join..n it's not like u wan u join u noe..alot of things like whether u can adapt to it..whether u're up to it..n whether it will make a gd cca[now tt they're looking at quality of ur cca in ur testi] . it's like 2nd intakers are not considered lor..alot of ccas dun take in 2nd intakers..like e dance club i joined la.. they dun haf ani more prac for those not in syf le lor.so it's like i haven went to ani prac den dey gonna stop prac for us until may. how to join like tt? studies..even bigger problem.cannot understand in ani subjs lor..their pace of teaching v v fast..so they've alreadi covered lots of stuff in e 1st 3 mths. dey're like 2 chapters faster den tpjc lor..so everytime go lectures n tutorials i dun understand anithg de.makes e sense of belonging thgy worse rite..=(

there's once ah..econs tut, e teacher is a trainee lah..so came up wif e idea of us playing a game to do the econs tutorial mcqs..den my grp consist of 4 ppl,half 2nd intake,half 1st intake. but e 1st intake said dey not v li hai in econs de..sae they also dun reali noe much abt econs.but anws..coz onli 2 of dem can contribute in ans e qns,our grp din ged ani pts for tt game lor.den e teacher was asking y u all so quiet one nv even put up ur hands to try n ans..den one girl sae..coz there's oni 2 1st intakes, e other one haven learn, e other one,i dunnoe wad happen to her, din take econs in 1st 3 mths [she was referring to mi.] den i'm like wad "dunnoe wad happen"..plus prior to tt she was asking mi lor..y u din take econs den i said i oni took 3 subjs..den she orh okie tt kinda thg..den when teacher asked she said another thg. i'm kinda hurt lor..wad dunnoe wad happen..smmore she noes wad happen..

aniwaes..now i haf to like start studying in ani spare time i haf le la..i tink tt's like so weird for mi..i'm not tt hardworking de lor..but e env pushed mi to b this wae. argh.

so..tt's all for my 1st wk in vjc..it's more den wad i can cope wif lor..smtimes i'll ask myself y m i doing this to my life.

i hope tt i'm onli saying this coz i haven been in e best of moods lately..[PMS-ing la..i'm like..so pathetic rite].

i hope it doesnt become permanent.[best of luck n cheer up!~(to myself)]

pictures

2005-03-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

heys ppl!~ =D got my photos up le so decided to come n blogg..i tink i wont haf tt much time to blogg le eh. miss lots of ppl. dun realli c u all online one..so this is like a tool to kip in touch i suppose?

eh..todae 2nd dae since they resume e normal timetable..so scary..so mani thgs to catch up..den coz most ppl are 1st intake dey dun realli care abt e 2nd intake..dey will juz go on wif lessons lor..but end of dis wk we'll haf e timetable for make-up lecture which starts next wk after our normal sch dae which ends like 4..so prob our make-up lect starts at 4 smthg n ends at 6?7? omgosh..=( den i haf to learn n absorb so mani thgs at one go..cant imagine how i gonna survive..oh gosh it's 8 alreadi..i tink i'll update another time kk..now let u all c e photos!~

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[right now, u muz b tinking i'm crazy ritex..haha.yah la mi siao ler..can?haha muz create e atm for u all to c pics mah.]
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tada!~ my uni!

close up on my tie

pe shirt front

pe shirt back

i wore this to sch on mon!~ omgosh it's like soo long lor e skirt.nerdy ritex [btw tt's my parents' rm de mirror..yah i noe it's broken n cacked but it's e longer mirror tt can c full length in my house..yah yah..pathetic..hahax]

after alteration-

acting cute. =P

enough eye candy le ritex..haha.kk i realli hafta go..bye ppl!~ take care miss u all!~

tong hua

2005-03-27T20:50:00.000+08:00

heys..sorrie ah cant post u all e pics of mi in uni tt soon..coz my mum haven alter..e skirt is kinda long n i tink i'll look toot wif it la.but i still haf to wear it to sch tml.omg.die la sure gonna b labelled nerd. =X

anws..did i mention tt i skipped orientation on fri?haha.shuyun instigated mi!~haha. [yah kt i noe u're shocked like WAD?] but yah she realli did wanted to skip.right frm e start of e sch tt dae.okie la we not so bad still got go sch..but tt was coz we tot there was sm admin stuff..den we're like after assembly alreadi trying to zao ler lor..haha.reali funnie la. we were in e hall n we were supposed to learn e 3rd mass dance -called neutron dance i tink.i'm not sure.haven even seen it.haha.. den we were like deliberating over whether we shld go off not..den i sae if we wan to go muz go now coz dey doing head count..ltr ppl missing den e ogls will kena.so we went to e canteen to like hide n wait for e rest to leave for e world tour..[it's like amazing race in marine parade lah.] den on e wae frm e hall to e canteen we met a sc..she's like "patrolling" e place la. den i bluff sae i nid to go toilet change to my shorts..but shuyun tt too-guai-n-cannot-tell-lies ger told e sc" i tell u frankly..we're trying to escape..." i mean, omg shuyun i managed to bluff e sc wif my big fat ugly lie lor..den u cai chuan mi. all my efforts wasted. =( but nvm.. e sc said" ok u can go but u'll haf trouble at e gate.."

anws we nv plan to leave at tt time la.wanted to wait in canteen till e rest leave. den we're at e canteen..another sc came to ask us to go back..asked whether we were 1st or 2nd intake at first..den we [shuyun,mi,huimin,yongyi] hesitated..den i asked, "does it matter whether we're 1st or 2nd intake? " den e sc said smthg abt it's essential tt e 1st intake mix wif e 2nd intake bla bla..n we muz go back la.but dey used mi eating breakfast as an excuse n said we will go back ltr.-_-'' den after tt all of us were like trying to come up wif lies n stuff to tell e sc if we met one..i dun realli rmb wad were those but yah it was funnie la..us guai ppl trying to come up wif lies..haha.but anws..it was 9.10++ ..e rest of e sch were in e hall[still learning e dance i tink..]den we saw 2 ppl leaving e sch by e main gate..den we saw tt dey were not stopped or anithg..so we decided to leave as well..den we walked out of e main gate,turn left n wanted to walk to e nearest bus stop..but huimin saw a sc sm distance awae n stopped us..so we quickly turned right n walked one big round along e expressway to reach e bus stop n took e 1st bus tt came.phew. haha..wad great adventure we had trying to escape n hide frm e sc..it's more thrilling den e world tour itself isnt it..haha.

tml..i dunnoe wad we gonna do in sch though..i onli noe it's civics for e 1st period..after tt i dunnoe ler.but anws i gonna wear e new sch uni to sch starting tml..tink i'll look n feel weird..but i juz kinda dun wan to wear nas uni coz we'll becum e minority there.n at 5pm i haf akido training.wah so fast 1st training ler.dunnoe will do wad.hopefully not tt tough =S *worried*

oh yah on fri mi huimin n shuyun walking ard e sch to find a toilet to change n we met this indian girl hu asked us "u're frm ngee ann ah? i'm also frm ngee ann! ..." but she got stopped by her fren.had to rush for other lessons i tink..but err..i dun recog her leh.maeb i dunnoe enuf seniors. but wells.tt's one more senior frm nas in vj. =)

i juz watched tong hua e mv..v v vv touching!~ so sad e story..but in e beginning quite funnie la.u all muz watch it if u all can okiex. =D i like e song so much now..=D tt's y it's my background music..nice hor. heex..

mi gonna watch tv..got 5566 on ch8..sm zheng ren jacky wu show..hahax shld b funnie.. =D
anws tt's all..take care ppl! *huggs*

orientation 2

2005-03-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

heys peeps!~ long time no c ler wor..hahax okie la onli 1 dae but i'm alreadi missing u all ! =(

orientation 2:
this morning mi,sy,huimin met mark at e canteen b4 assembly..den while waiting for e bell to ring..we looked ard n all tt we cld c is VS ppl, SCGS ppl, Cedar ppl, Tkgs ppl..bla bla bla.suddenly i was juz not used to being e minority in e jc..no seniors n not many frens whom u cld look to for assurance. anws i muz sae i'm impressed wif e sch bldg n facilities..even though i've onli seen a part of it.. their tv for announcements is a plasma tv lor.my god.den e annoucement sae muz report to LT 1 by 7.30..den there will b a countdown there lor..how mani mins n secs left.wow agns.den ltr we went to sm performing theatre for sm briefing den e place like so nice lor.2 storey de like sm concert hall like tt..den e floor is carpeted..u haf to c it urself lah.i describe maeb u all cannot visualize tt well.hahax. so overall i'm impressed wid e sch's bldg..

but i'm not tt impressed wif e ppl there lorx.

coz there's a lot of Vs ppl..so when it's time to do cheers..u'll c a few bois start a Vs cheer[which happens to b a vjc cheer as well.even e sch song is e same.. -_-'' must dey make non vs ppl feel so left out] den ALL e Vs bois will rush there n squeeze each other n jump n cheer. den e non vs ppl will like look at dem n wait till dey finish.also dunnoe y they do this lor.hao lian tt alot of dem frm VS ah.no idea.but it just shows e level of discrimination we may b getting in future.haix.dun wan tink so much now.must b optimistic yah? =)
besides VS ppl doing those stuff..there's also 1st intakers n 2nd intakers prob..1st intakers,being in tt sch for 3mths alreadi..have alreadi found their own frens n cliques lor.plus when we're grped in our ogs..a few 2nd intakers are put into a grp where e members are frm e same CT[i tink it means civics tutorial grp. like cg lor. mine is s42!~ juz found out de.damn far hor.] wah like tt how to mix sia..all same class even closer.how can we even blend in..?

tt's all i gotta sae for todae lor.late ler..anws i bought my uniform ler.it's like beige but looks kinda white at times. e weird thg is tt girls must wear belts lor!~u're supposed to wear but i guess e girls there dun.like so weird la.anws when i ged it altered n okie le i will take pictures n post it here!~ =D zi lian mi.haha. iya let those hu miss mi ged to c mi face ma.. ritex..? haha. anws gotta go slp ler.nitex ppl!~ hope tt tml will b abit better.but i tink i pon-ing sm events.c how..=P

i actualli made it

2005-03-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

i've had 2 slpless nites.
i dunnoe issit becoz of e stress n worries abt jae..but it was finali over todae.

"pls enter ur 7 digit nric no. , den press e hash[is it spelt this wae? i tink my spelling is bad.oh no.] key ...
u are posted to victoria junior college,sci stream ..pls report...gdbye"

i was like in total shock la..i was still in my civics rm wif my civics tutor n class..den i kept checking e hp to c wad time it is.den when it was 8..i called e jae phone no. rite in front of my teachers n classmates.. i cldnt wait till we ged e comp lab at 9.30.. before tt e teacher was asking where everyone gg ler..den sm alreadi noe..coz ppl hu put tpjc as 1st choice can c their results on e notice board in the foyer..den when i noe i got in i juz said it out loud in front of ppl lorx.. coz realli cannot believe ma..after tt i even called agn to double check n asked my sis to log in to e web to triple check..hahax.

anws after tt we went to chem lec..but lecturer cant open her file so end up no lecture..den jiahui,regina, desiree n boazhu decided to go to kbox for outing later. so when it's time for phy lecture we decided to skip it n sae tt we nid to go comp lab check results..haha.

we went to kbox de k lunch..heard it's cheaper..it's my 1st time there lor..at 1st din reali wan go coz dun dare to sing in front of ppl..den pay for it smmore..waste ah..i wan save up for my clothes and bags [tt nv seemed enuf] one..but end up i still go..coz it's e last time i'll c dem.. ='(
starting damn scary lah..coz e my voice thru e mike sounds weird..den i sing will zao sia de la..-_-'' tt eaplains y i'm not in choir doesnt it..hahax. anw later on got more courage n more used to it le so will dare to sing louder..so end up feel quite high la..but i almost lost my voice lor..haa..sing too much..like sing 4,5 songs in a row la.. overall enjoyable lorr.but wad i dun like is tt kbox din open on time lor..supposed to b 11 am open de..11.10 den open..den our singing time deucted..den sing until 2.45pm haf to go off lerr..kena chased veri sao xing..den their lunch ah.omg u noe. it's meepok la..but it was dry yet oily, den looked veri pathetic..c liao also dun wan eat..it's coz hungry den eat de lor.cheat ppl money ah.. =( but wells, i had fun =D den we went to take neoprints at tmall..coz e other better machine backgrd spoil ler..onli got green.tt's y we took e other one.e one wif 3 cameras - top,middle,bottom. it's 18 shots..den end up we cant even c ourselves clearly in e top n bottom view la..onli chose e middle view one.everyone's position is e same lor..hahax. but for momento sake la.

i will miss 05s16 [ cilin,ada,regina,desiree,baozhu,jiahui,cheng wee,brandon,jimmy,..]
i will miss e not so nice canteen food
i will miss e joy frm skipping lessons
i will miss tpjc band's sax sect..although we're not tt close..we're now closer. =)
[u noe..i hate to leave e band coz i noe smone i dislike will take over my place. i hate it =( ]
i will miss seeing Him[my og de guy..haha] in tpjc [ wonder where he went.. =( ]
i will miss e familiar faces i see in tpjc
i will miss e veri gd math tutor mr lim bb ,n e veri kind mr hong e phy tutor, and most imptly..
i will miss qiongkuan,siti n wanqing in tpjc

tmr will b a brand new beginning for mi..i screwed up my beginning in tpjc.i dun wish to screw it up agn in vjc. wish mi luck ! =D

wanqing's pressie

2005-03-21T15:41:00.000+08:00

heys kt..this is wanqing's b-dae pressie..cute bah? now at sch tou tou blog de lor..v scared ppl c.. =P i chose this coz it's a baby..she likes babies rite? plus it's a cupid.so hope tt her prince charming can come soon lor.heex..

hey hey

2005-03-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

heys peeps!~ back agn! was awae for quite sm time coz e mouse died on the family! cldnt function w/o THE MOUSE lor..din noe it is soooo impt until it was spoilt.

i guess all things are like this..u dun realise smone's or smthg's importance until u lose dem..

i din realise my mouse was so impt to mi till e dae it spoilt n i felt totalli handicapped seeing my sisters trying to replace the mouse with the keyboard.

i din realise 4e1 was so impt to mi till the dae i left for jc n found tt gd frens n classmates r not tt easily found.

i din realise time was so impt to mi till there is no time left.[okie i tink it sounds grammaticali unsound..iya dun care lah u all understand can ler hor.]

i tink u all haf seen it in emails n stuff..abt making full use of ur time,ur daes, ur life..because u nv noe when will it end.

y do i sound so pessimistic n serious all of a sudden..guess it's e end-of-the-hols mood working up..haha. yah..sian ah tml haf to go back to sch ler.n guess wad? i haven done much during e hols..n here i m preaching abt living ur life to e fullest.hahax. okok i'll reflect on tt.i'll try =D

i heard on e news tt posting results will b out on tues..oh my god..time to worrie. = (
hahax.n superstitious mi happen to go to e guan yin temple todae so i went to "qiu qian"[i dunoe how to sae it in eng lehx..draw lots ah?hahax.paiseh.] to ask if staying in tpjc will b gd..or shld i go to another sch like vj n tj..i hoped e 'goddess' noes wad i asking..coz i was like saying it in half eng half chinese in my mind..but anws..e result of my lot was roughly abt sunshine after e rain bla bla..n it is a gd lot la..so which means i will ged my choice? hahax. or maeb it means tt staying in tpjc will onli ged better. i dunnoe. we'll c we'll c..

till den..i shall worrie n worrie..*crosses fingers* wish mi luck!

back to sch tml!~

replies replies

2005-03-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

heys ppl! decided to use this instead of the tag board to reply coz there's a limit to my tag board msgs..n it refreshes itself v v frequently, taking my unfinished msg toged wif it.dotx..so to prevent e frustration..mi use this lor.

granddaughter: u mean e song tt is playing in e backgrd? it's gareth gates' say it isnt so.the scrolling marquee at the top is e lyrics as well. =D

potato: yah..like i've waited a thousand yrs le la.i noe u veri xing fu..dun suan mi. u're like e worse person to tell mi to wait patiently..totalli ironical la.hahax.

tern: realli!~ oh man we realli xin you lin xi yi dian tong..hahax.u wan e song's mp3? i haf it..n where u hear e song frm de ah?no prob glad to b of help to u.u wan ani other songs e lyrics i help u find.i noe of a webbie wif chinese lyrics..

hehex.done.my replies to all of u =D

now for updates..this wk had band camp..n guess wad e fun part of e camp is e skiping practices part! hahax. tues we'r supposed to turn up at 8.30 but coz most seniors wont b here since they haf a make up phy lecture till 11.30 ..n tt's e lunch time for band as well..so we sax juniors decided to turn up at 12.30..hahax. li hai ba.den there's this overnight camp which we decided not to stay as well..=P it's supposed to b until todae abt 1pm..but coz it's juz spring cleaning..we decided not to go as well..hahax. it's fun when we "ba-kat" with e seniors to skip e prac toged..e irony of tt..heex

coming up..band prac on fri..outing wif girlies on sat.. n most prob missing e outing wif ying on sat coz of tt.haix.one juz cant haf e best of e 2 worlds...

vj vj here i miss

2005-03-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

feeling all mixed up.

i dunnoe wad to tink now.it seems tt i've got lots to sae but i simply dunnoe where to begin.

i've heard "news"[frm band conductor,frens] abt e jae thgy.seems tt mani of us dragon babies have done so well tt e gd jcs cut off pts haf been reduced by at least 1 or 2? like hwa chong is now 2 pts? n vj is going to b like 4 la.n when they sae 4, it means partial 4.which means out of all e applicants who got 4,onli sm will make it..which means tt mi wont make it lah.

=/

i dunnoe whether i shld feel optimistic abt this thgy.okies 1st travelling time is not so long,i wont face prob in mixing in an eng orientated n stressful sch,plus i got more frens in tpjc! but it still doesnt feel tt gd.coz u noe u r able to go smwhere but coz of a wrong choice made u cant? haix.alreadi regretting my choice.but i dun wan go tj lehx.used to be my dream sch but seeing the potential stress tt i wld face,i dun feel like gg there alreadi.

enuf abt e sad stuff..
yest i went to tmall wif sm ppl frm my cg..it was fun larr.we watched lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events. sunny is so cute lorr.a baby who loves to bite stuff.smmore she can bite anithg n everythg lor.for example.a can!~ she's like a can opener sia.hahax.den after e movie we went to take neoprints.n we dragged e onli 2 guys hu were there with us along.hahax.they were like reluctant lorr.den we sae take "pictures" instead of take "neoprints" they were abit more willing den finalli agreed to take wif us.hahax.majority wins =D
tmall like little tpjc like tt..go everywhere can c familiar faces.also a small nas.can c all e cute cute small sec 1s n 2s..den there was like a beeeg grp of nas ppl in e neoprint shop lorr.all sec2s de ba.got guys got gers.feel like asking dem..*ahem c ur senior noe wad to do le hor* hahax.wah den e wait was like longer den the time u spend taking neoprints lah.coz there's onli one gd machine..like newest.so everyone q-ing for tt..but..i dun like e machine..dunnoe e machine spoil or wad..e backgrd all green one.ewww.plus u put e coins in den straight away 3,2,1 take le lor.no time prepare..we managed to squeeze 8 ppl inside e neoprint..end up all heads n cannot decorate much lor.hahax.shld separate into a few grps lor i tink.anws it's all done le la.sae so much no use also.

next wk got band camp.mon is 8am to 9pm lor.omg.wad kinda prac is this.13 hrs eh.my lips will like grow ulcer or smthg lor.plae until siao ah.plus e interest to go for band is not tt strong.coz no frens there.so v boring my practices.most of the time i'm like alone.haix.smtimes i wonder whether i'm autistic or not.maeb i'm slightly autistic.i smtimes dun like to tok lor.den it's like not reali juz smtimes but most of the time? omigosh..

tired.todae had a long band prac. frm 2.30 to 9pm.includes dinner break but still,it was tiring.sm pt in time it was farni la.coz dr lee kept saying funnie thgs[*squints eyes*"hwa ee!~"..hahax.u gotta b there to noe wad i mean].he todae gd mood lah.lucky us.

anws..till 23 mar nothg is confirmed.n it might juz b like e rumours spreading ard b4 e release of Os results.of which none is true..come to tink of it.hmms..maeb there still is hope.

so exhausted.mi gg to bed ler.niteX ppl!~ sweet dreams for mi! =D

guang liang - tong hua

2005-03-11T23:05:00.000+08:00

a story abt a happily ever after.

if onli it happens to mi.

where's prince charming? the princess is angry alreadi okiex. how can u let her wait so long?

JAE - submitted

2005-03-05T12:08:00.000+08:00

thurs i wanted to reg for my jae..but the server was veri bz n i cldnt log in..despite being online frm like 3+ to 6+ ... -_-'' waste my time..=( den tt night i found out tt dey extended e reg to mon 6pm..n increased e capacity so tt more can log in n not face problems of server being down coz of high traffic. i juz submitted my registration at abt 10am..

1.vj,2.tj,3.tpjc

i wanted to do it asap so tt i wont b influenced n change my choice..

u noe..it's veri funnie to c the extreme 2 rxns frm my sec sch teachers n jc tutors when dey noe i wan go for vj..

"go for it doreen...dun listen to others...they wan u to stay in tpjc tt's y they tell u tt..give it a try..u don't want to regret it when u're old right?..."

"if u put tj..u definitely can ged it..but if u put vj as 1st choice..it's quite risky..u can onli choose between vj or tj to put as ur 1st choice..because if u put tj as ur 2nd choice u're wasting ur choice..dey sure wont accept u.so choose tj or vj as 1st choice, n put tpjc as 2nd choice.."

which made it harder for mi to choose..i noe i m a lil bit too ambitious n i'm a lil crazy..i was aiming for tj all my sec 4 life u noe..frm prelims to my Os..den now tt my results assures mi a place in tj if i choose it as a 1st choice, i chose to gif this chance up n risk putting vj as 1st choice, noe-ing tt if i dun ged in to vj,tj most prob wont take those hu put dem as 2nd choice, n i may veri well end back in tpjc..or worse..sm other sch. wad's wrong wif mi? = (

despit e fact tt trspt is diff, i may face diff adapting, making frens, becoming more ang-moh-rish..i still put vj as my 1st choice.

siao right?
i tink so too.

i've been tinking abt it.. smhow vj and doreen doesnt seem to equate.

plus..e problem of my cca..i'm pretty sure tt if i join e sch after 1st 3 mths i wld not b able to join e sch band..coz syf takes place in may..n it's less den 2 mths so dey wont take in ppl unless e sect is realli short of ppl[kinda unlikely for saxophone sect], or u r a star player [even more unlikely] ..den dun join tt i also dunnoe wad else to join. mi n my pathetic life. like no band den no more cca can join.let's c..sports is out, cultural grps r out..leaving mi wif clubs n societies like.. i dunoe...?sci? maths? eeeww...mi n my more pathetic life.. =(

yest i went for tpjc band prac..i was e onli junior there lor..not tt e others quit la..but maeb dey got thgs on..like wad career seminar kinda stuff. den at e end of e prac e conductor was asking e j1s..if u're staying let e president noe..if u're leaving also must let him noe..if u're choosing smwhere else but unsure also let him noe..actuali i wanted to tok to him after band prac..but apparently dey had a committee meeting so 4get it lor..i dun wan to wait. but my SL asked mi le la..i said i trying to go vj..den e 1st thg he sae is.."ur agg last yr cant ged in.."den i'm like hurt la..[i tink dey tot i got 10..i tot i got 10 at 1st also..until i realise i can use my exp cl de grade]den after tt he asked agn i said i got 5 net after my bonuses..den he's like okie..but dunnoe whether i can make it not.

e same thg most ppl sae when i [reluctantly] tell dem i wan go vj..dey 'll b like," it's risky..but u can try.."

argh.

so now till jae results out[23 mar 10am] still got like 18 daes..between which will b a mar hols..den dere's a band camp lor..so shld i go not ah..it's like i cheating their feelings..make dem tink i'm staying when i'm most prob leaving[i hope i can la.not tt i m.] but i may juz end up back in tpjc lor..so like i tink i shld secure a place..but for syf i cant ler..coz there's alreadi 3 seniors..dey onli wan 4 alto sax..which means onli 1 junior can join lor..n i dun tink i can b e one..coz e other gerl frm bedok view got her own sax, got piano backgrd, can learn a song damn fast, can side read betta den mi,...n lots more other gd pts compared to mi. wad's wrong wif mi sia..in band for 4 yrs liao still so lousy =(

how how how...?!

D is for d i l e m m a //*

05S16

2005-03-02T17:45:00.000+08:00

okiex this is a late entry because this was taken on mon..haha..onli 10 ppl turned up out of 24 ppl lor..win alreadi la..heex..we skipped pe to plae dai dee..in a vacant classroom..bu pa si u noe..hahax..i'll alwaes rmb our ever playful class wif e 2 jokers brandon n jimmy..=D

i made it!!~

2005-02-28T19:28:00.000+08:00

okiex..todae is e big dae for most of us..been waiting since e last dae of results..i must sae i wasnt tt excited or tt scared..a bit mixed of emotions ba..dunoe wad to feel..

finalli got my results..was like looking for e L1R5 aggregate..den found out tt there isnt this section..so silly lor..den i'm like so wad i got? so one by one add..den found out tt i got 10!~ no bad wor..juz wad i wished for at e fountain of wealth at suntec city..it actualli came true!~ which means e other wish will also come through lor.haha..yah i sure hope it does..heex

i got 8distinctions in total..a1 - phy,a n e math, exp cl ; a2 - bio,chem, el,hcl ; comb humans - b3..like tt lor..so i found out tt if i take my cl instead i can get 9..so mi single pointer..woa cannot imagine tt.. actualli i tot wadever my results is i will cry eh..but i din..dunnoe wad's wrong wif mi..maeb i "ren" too much so now wan cry also quite difficult? haha..dunnoe la..

this yr our sch did veri well i tink..coz got 6 ppl got 9 distinctions..wow!!~ but there were sm whom we werent surprised to ged this honour..but there were sm misses as well..sm we tot wld do well din ged called up..but well they din do tt badly also la..so congrats to everyone!~ =D

i juz read part of e newspapers..there are 21 scholars in singapore lor..13 gers 9 bois..score 10 a1s..tt's like totally crazy man.. but it's e best in singapore's history..e most no. of ppl..tink must b coz of e dragon yr baby boom as well..haha..there's 12 frm rgs,9frm ri n 1 frm duman high..e dunman high one was a psle top scholar as well lor..so li hai sia..she win le lor..can ged all e scholars for psle, os n as le la..dunnit c ler.. and this proves a pt.. gers are smarter den bois!~ =D

sorrie la mi like in e world of girrl power n stuff..but..

it's true. hahax..

okiex la shall end here..byeex!~

i'm still waiting for my treat by my parents for doing well..they'r like bo chap my results..so unhappie..

26 feb 05 - 6A gathering

2005-02-27T13:02:00.000+08:00

from left, clockwise, - shuen chuan, shimin,huiying,jason,jianhao,hwei sie, mi =)

sc org this thingy like last min..fri den sae wan meet for lunch ..so i'm like okie lor since so long nv c each other..den we're supposed to meet at 12 at bugis mrt..den end up onli i reach there at 12 la..-_-'' but cant blame them la..coz i m e onli on wif direct trspt there..dey haf to change trains at city hall coz most stay in e north side..den 12.20 shimin,hwei sie,huiying n jian hao all came together..1st thg i notice is jh change a lot a lot lor..veri veri hip hop now..den we waited till sc came at abt 12.30..n for mr da pai jason to come at sm time much ltr...so we agreed to eat at pastamania..den we ordered lots of stuff..until it's like 80++ haha.. i ordered sm cabonara thgy...it's sphag wif bacon, egg n cream..muz sae it isn't realli to my liking..coz it's too creamy..!feel so full after eating abt haf a plate onli..den so lang fei la..haha

den we took neoprints too..as momentos..even though e guys were veri unwilling..haha..but take liao they also wan snatch to c lor..haha hai no scanner so resort to using digi cam to take pictures of neoprints..crazy la i noe..haha

den e guys wanted to watch white noise but most girls got smthg on..so din..den dey started toking abt our class..den everyone recalled sm ppl..den we ended up gg to sm coffeeshop in bugis v to chit chat..quite nice la..can catch up n stuff..although there r times where there is silence between us...cant b blamed ma..so long nv c ler..nid sm time to "click back" agn..after sc left to j8 shop..den ltr shimin n hy also had to leave to work n meet frens..den left mi n e 2 guys.dey r still bent on watching e movie..but dun wan to watch together as 2 guys coz they tink it's gay-ish..[dey v anti -gay one lor.extremely] okiex..so i pei dem so tt dey can watch e movie n not feel gayish..so we went to ps..den found out e timing is not tt gd..coz it alreadi started..den e next time slot is like 2 hrs later..haha..so i sae dun wan la..coz i'm scared of this kinda horror movie also lor actualli..den sooooo vvvv awkward coz i dunno where to go den dey'r like so sian dey juz wan to stay outside..so after lots of deliberation..we decided to go to esplanade..haha..lame rite..but realli run out of ideas ma..=( jh brought us to this roof top garden kinda place..[he seems veri veri familiar wif tt place..haha] den we chatted for a while..abt an hr ba..den go eat dinner at suntec..den b4 tt jas saw this fountain of wealth n suggested tt we make a wish for our big Os..haha..mi 1st time c this thg lorr..quite cute la.it's like u put ur hand there to touch e small fountain of water..den walk ard it 3 times..making ur wish at e same time..at 1st it was okie..den u walk 2nd n 3rd round u're like so tired from stretching ur hand too long..plus tt playful jh splashed water at mi la..-_-'' make my top n face v wet.. =(
den we ate bk for dinner..so full lor..=( muz diet todae alreadi..lunch n dinner eat until so full.. heez..okiex..overall it was realli fun coz we cld catch up n stuff.

realli look forward to next official 6a gathering..coz i cant wait to c everyone..!!~

28th feb -- the day!!

2005-02-24T16:57:00.000+08:00

juz received news tt we'll ged our results on mon..it's double n triple confirmed le..not like e last time..all sae confirm is tt dae but end up not..i've been told it wld b on this wed [?!] , n tml..but turns out both are wrong..lucky lor..coz i dun wan so fast take results..

i'm neither mentally, physically or emotionally prepared.

=/

yest..siti n qk din ask mi whether i confirm gg band after my pw at 4 den dey go n plae TT demselves wif ying..i wanted to go!! i told dem b4 ler..when u all gg tell me..den i'll go..i juz wan to go c ying..i miss her!! so long nv c her le..den they go nv tell mi..feel so cheated..i said i wasnt sure to go band not..u all were telling mi not to go rmb? so i din! coz i din wan to go in after they haf started for abt 1 1/2 hrs..n of coz it's mostly bcoz i dun wan to c SMBODY. so i missed yest band.. which makes it twice in a wk le. i juz feel guilty skipping band? coz it's not like i reali cant make it or wad..it's juz tt i feel terribly awful when i m sitting like one seat awae frm him..n everyone noes we r frm e same sch n sect so we shld b like gd frens? or at least frens? but no..we are like strangers n even when we have to pass pencils or paper across he'll be like snatching frm mi! i dun like tt! it's like mi not so angry wif him ler..if he not so UNGENTLEMAN i wld haf stopped this cold war thgy lor..realli bad attitude lor..still sae ppl.pot calling kettle black.hrmph.

i dunoe if i'm too stubborn or wad..i juz dun like my frens to tok to him. coz i tot they were like omg he's so bad to sae tt to u..den i c dem toking right in front of mi..i dunoe..i juz dun like it..maeb i'm afraid tt he'll snatch all my frens n leave mi all alone n lonely..maeb tt's y he keeps toking to my frens..it feels really bad when u noe u are e one hu is e middlemen n tt's y dey became frens, n there they r toking right in front of u. n he purposely pretended u were not there.n even called a fren hu was walking beside mi juz to sae hi.i dunnoe wad was tt for.but i dun like it.

wellz,..i haf other more impt things to worrie abt other den this..i shall not let it bother mi..argh.

wish mi luck on monday 28th feb for my results!!

Won't Give Up

2005-02-24T16:41:00.000+08:00

[p/s : to view the chinese lyrics..plz right-click, select encoding - Unicode(UFT 8)enjoy! =) ]

5566 - Won't Give Up

风停了它又吹汗干了却又湿了好几回

我看见你眼中的泪不该让你陪着我受罪

看你摇着头说不后悔

要我放心勇敢往前飞

i won't give up

take my hand

因为有你的爱当我的信念

梦再远也要追

不管前方暗藏着多少危险一定是蓝天

我拼了命去追

这一路上有太多是与非

错或对我又能问谁

只求自己问心后无愧

跌跌撞撞也许很狼狈

多少次我笑中带着泪

i won't give up

take my hand

因为有你的爱当我的信念

梦再远也要追

不管前方暗藏着多少危险一定是蓝天

( you know i won't give up )

在梦里面我看不见你的脸

心要碎而地要灭不会变

n e heat goes on

2005-02-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

"this is doreen reporting live frm pasir ris..there is a forest fire in tampines street xx..the fllowing are photos taken frm the scene.. "

it was a fine..somewhat foggy dae..look wad's tt smoke frm?

omg!

it's a fire!!~ look how smoky it is!!

cny nas visit

2005-02-15T18:57:00.000+08:00

mi n sm classmates visited nas on cny eve..kinda happi tt most ppl cld turn up..but end up we didnt do ani catching up coz everyone juz stayed in their own circle of frens..so..haiz..

mrs keong our hcl teacher..she v ai mei wor..we tell her wan take pic den she put lipstick la..comb hair nice nice den come out meet us de..haha..

okie..so i'm blocked..but nvm..she's mdm siak..our maths teacher..quite blur de la..so she teach i also kinda scared coz dunnoe correct not..haha

ms kum - bio teacher.. she requested tt she c e picture immed after it was taken..make sure tt she looked pretty n everything..heee..

i tink i look stupid wif tt pose..like so over n act cute.. -_-

to sum it all up..

2005-02-15T17:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm..always use same starting like boring hor..haha..kip saying i haven been blogging for a long time..but it's true wad..heez..todae i'll tok abt my life in tp so far..frm e beginning-

right to e end..

is it gonna be e end?i dunoe eh..

1st wk of sch- orientation..
it's baaad when u're a natural introvert like mi hu usually clams up when i meet new ppl..so i pratically haf no frens in my og lor..sirius 09 ppl- do u even rmb there's smone called doreen inside? -_- guess they dun.. in e beginning i guess everyone's juz trying to b nice to each other..u noe..juz smile smile..ask ur name..tok tok..den move on to another person.den smhow all e gers in e og got a fren already..smhow they seem to click n so they pair up wif each other..so everywhere together n stuff..so it's realli kinda diff to "cut in" n join them u noe.. =( den i tot i found "a fren"..her name's aarti,frm springfield de..at 1st we cld sorta ged along..den we like go to places together la..like when we plae games n stuff..den she sorta bangseh mi along wif other ppl lor..we were eating wif sm gers frm e og at e canteen..den i finished earli so i went to return my plate la..den when i returned e whole table was empty wif onli my bag there lor..felt so angry n disappointed wif dem..>_< i tot we cld b frens n dis is wad happened..den after tt i dun realli feel like mixing wif dem ler..can avoid den avoid..so gg to sch for orientation is a dread for mi as e time goes by..but..i guess there's sm kind of treat as well..heez..
coz i realised tt a guy looks kinda like my pri sch crush..oopz..haha..so everydae go sch will wan to take a few more glances at him..hoping tt he'll notice mi..e nerdy looking ngee ann ger..haha..den i rmb we were playing dry games on like e 3rd dae of orientation..den it was this game which needs u to cross a stretch of grd with chairs..u noe..ur feet cannot touch e grd one..den they made it such tt it's boi-ger-boi-ger kinda pairing standing on e chairs..den all e guys went up ler..he was standing smwhere in e middle..den i purposely walk smwhere close there..fake fake wait for ppl to go up..den when there's a space behind him i went up..haha.u noe when they haf to take a chair frm e back u haf to sQueEzE so tt e chain of ppl can move forwards right..? den i squeezed lor..den heez..down there in my heart an shuang la..haha..can like smell his hair..haha..i tink i'm crazy..=P

but..i dunoe his name..haha.last dae of orientation..we had to pass down a piece of pp writing our leadership positions..we'r seated in e hall listening to sm talk[dunnoe wad also] n he's seated one seat awae..so when e pp was passed back i juz fake fake c c la..den i found out his name..heez..den e 2nd last dae we were given our og contact list..so i went to friendster n check..den realised tt he's aTTacHed..n veri much in love frm wad i c..so frm den on i dun tink too much le lor..n to prevent myself frm being embarrassed..i'm not gg to sae his name..besides..hu will read this?hahaz..

i typed damn long le juz at orientation..feel like giving up ler..tink i update other daes one another dae..got hmwk to rush la. =(

btw..
haPPy FrIenDShIp wK!! =D

after a long wait

2005-02-03T18:06:00.000+08:00

wahz..so long nvr blogg ler..dunnoe where to start actualli..it's been like 10+ days ba..

tern left for melbourne[did i ged it right?] on 28 jan..yah..i cried..cldnt bear it..it's like i juz noe her tt kinda thing..still got lots more to noe abt her..den she left..n cldnt ged to noe her better.
e dae b4 she left was realli a big rush for mi lor..i had to rush to tm to ged thgs to make her a roche bouquet..i succeeded btw..haha..so proud of myself coz it's e 1st time i make sucha thg..

yes i wasnt smiling..dotx..
yea i smiled.haha.

e moment yt saw mi she hugged mi lor.she sae she dun wan to leave..den i wanted to cry alreadi but i held back my tears la..if not i'll becum e onli one lor..but when she went thru e gates i cldnt stand it le..den e tears juz rolled down my eyes..juz feel veri emotional..maeb it's her leaving.mayb it's all e stress i've been bearing these few weeks..i dunnoe.

yest had college road run, so tiring..i got a 244th place! hahaz..damn lan i noe..bt out of 600++ ppl..shld b okie la hor..heez.

i dunnoe wad else to update ler...mi still tinking hard abt whether to stay or leave tpjc..smtimes i feel like i now noe more ppl n noe e place so well..it's hard to go to another place n learn it all over agn..n go through those awkward times agn..plus i haf to c if my results can make it not..argh.

dun ask mi if i'm gg to stay in tpjc or not plz..i realli dunoe e ans.

bt i'll haf to noe it by e end of this mth.

mood swings..

2005-01-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

sorrie havent been updating lately..[hu m i saying sorrie to..?]1st mi too bz..go hm at like 7+pm everydae..n i dun realli haf e mood to tok abt my "problem" wif everyone agn..it's like mi telling e whole world..

i hate mood swings.
it makes mi feel lonely, sad, depressed,anti social, dun feel like tokin to anione.

so i'm juz gg to stop here for todae..

i dun wan to sae sorrie when i was e one hu was scolded.

1st wk of lectures

2005-01-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

heys..after a few daes of lectures, i finalli got a taste of wad jc life is abt..veri tiring actualli.

e yr 2s normally end lessons at like 4..tt's y e cca meetings is often held at tt time..den although i end like abt 1 coz now still dun haf tutorials, i haf to wait in sch until 4 30 for their band prac to start. speaking of band ah..i realli veri disheartened..coz e response frm e j1s to join band is apparently "over-whelming" coz there's too many players n too little instruments..for eg, saxophone sect-my sect, got like in total 14 players including j2s..like so many lor..normal band shld haf like 6 saxophonists in total onli..so there's like 8 more.so obviously ur place there is not realil secured since u dun realli belong to band as u dun haf "ur instrument"..somemore there's syf coming up in may,plus i might not wan to stay in tpjc..so my chances of being a member of the band is slimmer n slimmer.one thg i muz sae is tt my sect de seniors had a tok wif us, n she was like telling us to slack in 1st 3 mths, den can "pon-tank" den pon..she even sae wad time can go out frm which gate..w/o getting caught..haha..den she also sae if u can go to "greener pastures" den go..a pretty inspiring tok isnt it..telling u to leave tpjc..

i'm beginning to dislike my "fellow alto saxophonist" more n more.

it's like e longer u noe him, his "true colours" n his bad pts.
he's selfish.
he's un-gentlemen.
he's unfeeling.
he's vulgar.
he's not my fren.

i dunnoe wad i did to incur his wrath but lately he's been like scolding me vulgarities more n more often.i tink he hormonal imbalance or smthg.likes to pick fight wif ppl, b***ch abt ppl, saying bad thgs abt them n stuff.i hate him.he's e kind of ppl which i hate e most.

let's not tok abt this kind of ppl.not worth it..anw, hope tt e following daes will b more fulfilling n i wld perhaps somedae actualli enjoy being where i am.

1st wk in tpjc

2005-01-08T16:55:00.000+08:00

"...I wanna be a TPJCian
I wanna wear my TP crest
Y I wanna be a TPJCian
'Cos TPJC is the BEST!"

this is e college cheer i learnt in tp..but when i wan to sae e last line..i'll be like..issit..realli meh..the best? how can..?

1st week of sch is kinda horrid? i dun realli haf ani frens, i hate the feeling of being left out, forgotten, being lonely, no sense of belonging, and guess wad -

tpjc made mi feel tt.

maeb i'm too dao, too anti-social, looks too unfriendly-i dunnoe. i juz dun understand y nobody like wan to take e initiative to tok to mi u noe?okie so maeb u'll sae i shld like start toking to others.i tried.n juz when i tot i made sm frens hu can go break wif mi, the whole grp of them bang sei mi, leaving mi n my bag alone there on the canteen table when i merely went to return a plate.

tok abt feeling disappointed n angry.

so i decided not to realli tok to ppl..coz anw they wont even notice mi? wad's worst was tt on the og grp contact list,my name n contacts were not even on the list.i do not belong to tt grp,it seems.okie..maebe i'm too sensitive.but it's 'coz tt dae mi n my nas frens were late coz we were waiting for a v late fren hu missed her bus.it was so late tt e side gate had closed, so we had to walk all e way to the front gate..n woah, there was like a long que of late comers forming alreadi, n e majority of dem r tpjcians, mind u..tt's how slack e sch is i suppose..n coz i arrived late,i wasnt exactly sitting wif my og grp,i cldnt even recog if e ppl i'm seated wif r in my og or not..so maeb tt's y e pp to write our contacts wasnt pass to mi..

wadever..i dun realli care.

i'm beginning to dislike e sch more?i'm not tt sure,but it's coz i dun feel a sense of belonging,i din realli enjoy the orientation..okie maebe e silly jokes the ogls made,n e farni thgs they sae,n e fun games they played..but i juz feel it's not "happening" enuf..like other jcs haf trips to east coast parks etc to plae amazing race, n wadever it is, i juz wan to believe tt their schs r definitely more fun then this sch.sorrie ogls n scs of tpjc.. =X

e onli incentive i got was probably e chance to ogle at cute guys?haha..silly mi.

for subj combi, i'm taking phy,chem n maths. cca..most prob band..n another cca..guess wad, i signed up for sc..haha.bein veri realistic n tinking of the cca pts.okie la..mi wan learn sm skills as well ma..but it seems tough coz u haf to ged e sch to elect u into the sc.but tt's after 1st 3 mths.hopefully i'm not dere alreadi.i juz tink ppl[esp my og coz they will tink "wad's this anti social ger doing there?"] will luff at mi if they c mi there running for elections.

next wk e lectures will start..n e following wk e real timetable will set in.den i'll haf a hectic time..hopefully my cg is a friendly n fun one..?i realli hope to make sm real frens, not juz accquaintances,

n not ppl hu will bang sei u w/o a word.

oh yah..yest was og nite..a realli impt event coz it's e closing, n there's mass dance,performances, cheering competitions..

but,i din attend it.

i wanted to go actualli, den tt morning i asked my frens n they tink i shld attend my cousin's wedding instead[my cousin's wedding dinner took place yest as well,at conrad hotel]..n i was like, okie,since nobody will realise i'm nt there, y not go for e wedding instead? it's a once in a lifetime thg also..so i tink tt was more impt.

2nd wk at tpjc - hope it'll bode well. *crosses fingers*

LasT daE oF fReeDoM..

2005-01-02T13:03:00.000+08:00

heyhey!!~ glad to noe tt smone is reading my blogg..[ie u siti!~..aka my grandaughter..which i hate to admit..haha] i did sm minor changes to my blogg..ie the song playing in the backgrd..if u realise tt there is a song playing..haha..muz wait a while for it to load la..it's boa's waiting..yar..mi waiting for my prince charming..hence this song..haha..c ppl chu shuang ru dui[in pairs everytime] realli feel veri "empty" smtimes..feel like finding smone to make mi feel loved =X

haiz..so fast todae is the last dae of e hols ler..tml wld b like a brand new start for many of us ba..new sch,new schmates,new environment..n a new...mi? yea i definitely hope so..i hope to change for the better..dun b so slack n dun use com so often ler,yah..?let's hope tt can b achieved..

todae is like the last dae of freedom for mi..coz cant go out gai gai tt often ler.it seems like alot hasnt been done..i haven got new clothes, i din tidy my study table,nor my wardrobe..wonder wad was i doing this 2 mths..daydreaming?slacking?sleeping?haha..mayb i wanted to make up for wad i missed out last yr ba..-_-''

i tink i made smone angry yest..i din ask her out to buy sch shoes wif us[mi,wq n laura]..i tot she wanted to go out wif her mum to buy u c..so i tot it'll b better? i mean i wld like to buy shoes wif my mum de la..coz u nid tt advice,n perhaps to ask dem help u pay..n to help u bargain?haha..but since wq going so i tot i cld go along to c c look look..i din noe i wld buy..i wantd to buy when sch reopen..but e price they offer quite gd la..coz got 30% discount.my shoes originally wad 114 or smthg like tt, den reduce to 76 lor..gd bargain right?so i bought lor..it's not i wan leave her out or smthg like tt..but mi tot she wld b wif her mum wad..
was i wrong to tink like tt?
= (

ltr i'll be going airport..meet wif classmates to send daanesh off..he's leaving for uk to further his studies todae.we'll miss u, daanesh!
haha..tt is, if he reads this..it'll b a totally brand new start to him as well i suppose..

hope everythg turns out well for all of us.

28 dec pictures

2004-12-31T01:33:00.000+08:00

e neoprints mi n hayati took @ heartland mall..

i look like got white eyebrows leh..haha

princesses..in ancient times?haha

huggies!~

26 dec pictures

2004-12-31T01:30:00.000+08:00

mi n my elder sis

this is a ger okie..she nv wear bra okie..cn c her ahem ahem lor..but can c she go on stage den tug at her vest to cover..

this is e ff ger..which i tot was cardcaptor..haha

this is e "doll" i was toking abt..abit blur ah..sorrie abt tt

this is gothic!

c the ger in pink? i tink she's my sch mate..if anione of u noe can tell mi? thx ah..

25 dec pictures

2004-12-30T23:48:00.000+08:00

XmAs at OrchaRd:

@ the MeRLiOn ParK:

mi n lil sis

my lil sis..c! so funni right..i take one lor..so li hai right?e angle zun zun there lor..

tt's mi..but my jie dunnoe how to take one..e water coming out frm e wrong places..like..
my nose, n my chin.. -_-''

24 dec - 28 dec

2004-12-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

eh..when's e last time i blogg?*clicks back to c* oh..23..woah tt's ages ago..now 29 le..omG..well..mi will haf lots of typing to do now..

24dec-
hmmm..stayed at hm..was reali bored to tears..n hai..no ppl asked mi out!! *angry* so bad de..spent time at hm clearing mag..cutting out my 5566 de articles..den woah midnight den alot of ppl sms mi..den mi finally felt remembered..den mi chat wif hayati thru sms until abt 3am..haha..

25 dec- 1st dae of xmas
went out wif family for dinner..den e most xmas-sy thg i did was go orchard take pictures of e xmas deco they haf on e shopping centres..boring man..den e camera like not working tt well..coz taking photo inside a car u c..how can no vibrations..slight vibrations onli e pictures appear blurr..den end up all e pictures i take almost all blurr, if not cannot c wad it is.. -dotx- but wad was fun was tt we went to merlion park..den we took sm pictures..den i had a "wai"[crooked,slanted] idea..of us making use of the camera close n far effect to take pics of us spouting out water like e merlion..haha..i'll upload e pics in e next entry..actuali i got e idea when visiting a fren's pic gallery..they pretended tt there was a huge $2 note, hp, n burger by placing dem near e cam den e person go further..den will appear like u holding a huge object..realli funni..haha..u shld try this i tell u..e effect is v comical =D yep..n tt sorta ended my dae la..not a veri xmas-sy xmas but i had fun..yah lame fun..haha

26 dec- 2nd dae of xmas
haha..i almost 4got wad happen tt dae..almost wanted to skip it..but i rmb le!!mi n my jie went to a cosplay event @ far east plaza..one word to describe it- gothic
so scary sia sm of dem..u noe wif e black lipstick n black eye shadow..we took sm pictures..will upload ltr..den u can c how scary they look like..of coz..got sm cute ones..but mostly gothic la..i like e girl wif e cute blue-patterned dress..i tot she frm chobits..but den she go on stage le den i noe she's acting as doll * -_-''* ..sorrie la mi knowledge of anime characters is a "private limited" la..den even worse got 1 acting as winoa heartily [or smthg..dunnoe how to spell] n i tot is card captor in her "battle suits"..coz i c e wings on her costume back ma..haha..malu myself only..there's this gothic looking guy wich i like..haha..coz he sorta dressed like a "prince" u noe..wif those kind of tux n stuff..n he looks like those guys i will like de..haha..sHHHhh..
but i gotta complain ah...y e event so draggy..!~ supposed to start @ 3 but ended up an hr late..my god..lucky i arrived late..but i still had to wait..* -_-''* oh yah den when e thg ended i saw this ger dressed in pink..veri cute de..not coz i like pink den i sae she cute okiee..haha..n i haf this feeling she's frm my sch..same level de sch mate..but i dunoe her name or class..n i dun dare go up to her coz i scared i recog wrong ppl..i post e pic u all if can tell hu it is den tell mi okiee..thx ah..anw..i tink my blogg de viewing rate is very low.. -sadx- ..i knew it..i shldnt haf set up a blogg..it's a high mantainence thg..muz update often..muz thick-skin go ask ppl visit..tough..

27 dec - 3rd dae of xmas
dun reali treat it like xmas le la..dun haf tt mood smmore..n i dun celebrate coz mi no christian u c..mi juz writting it for fun coz on e 7th dae of xmas is new yr le wor!

todae had planned to go out de..coz yest din realli shop enuf..okiee it's din shop at all lor..coz accompany my sis watch e cosplay competition until like 6? den haf to go eat dinner wif family le coz they coming to pick us..okiee bak. i wanted to go out..den dunnoe ask hu to go wif..coz mi juz wan walk ard sm places find my sch stuff..n clothes if possible la.den i realise i dun haf "shopping frens"..i always go out wif sis den dare to shop de lor.i go out wif frens i will juz browse,wont go n try clothes, go in ransack all e clothes on the racks.find tt a bit saddening.so..i decided to go out myself..veri long time nv go out myself ler..last time i used to do tt,coz not much frens..now got more frens le still like tt.hai.so i was tinking..will having a bf be better?will i b able to shop wif him?will i stop getting jealous when i c other couples?
i dunno..i reali dunno..
@ ard 11+ tt dae..i received a call frm tern..she sae she got a call frm e sch asking her to go back to sch on wed..it was abt smthg veri serious tt e whole class was to report..i dun wish to sae it here tough..scared i sae smthg tt my classmates wld not wan other ppl to noe..den i called wq to find out..she sae haven..den she got incoming call -it was tt call as well! it scared us out of our wits lor..coz it concerns our future n e consequences is dire[is tt how u use it? i dunnoe..] den i waited n waited,panicked n panicked..n at 1+,i got tt call as well.frm tt dae on we were kept on our toes,having no idea wad it will be abt.juz tink abt it.40 ppl's future.sealed by a phone call.

terrfiying as it is..i decided to go out..i had to buy my sch stuff.lonely sia e whole journey..nv felt tt lonely b4..time passed so slowly..luckily i found my sch bag..it was e black leather sling bag tt i wanted.but tt's all..one trip out juz to find a bag..silly mi.y didnt i ask my frens out together?i dunnoe.juz dun feel like it..n after tt call..dun tink they got mood to go out.

28 dec - 4th dae of xmas
my dae out wif hayati daanesh's bbq

mi went bak to my "hometown"--hougang. all seemed so familiar..sm of the old shops still remained the same-like e provision shops opp my hse, near xps.but smthgs changed.xps.xms.both renovated the bldgs. xps looks totally different.i tink i dun even noe where's e hall, e GO..the canteen has got colourful bars enclosing it..hmmm..y nid the gate ah?trap e students inside?dun wan parents go inside?mi no idea.i haf changed as well.grown[abit] taller,more mature[in tinking], more fashionable,wearing thicker specs[more learned?-haha]..feels like i "yi jin huan xiang" [means u return to ur hm in glory]..okiee la not exactly in glory..but yah it's gd to be hm..to b in a place u'r familiar wif,where u noe where to buy wad,where u noe u wont get lost..but den agn..with e changes to the estate..i find the place both familiar n unfamiliar as well..hai..like..i dun even noe wad bus goes where..
i went bak my old hse de blk to meet hayati..she was my neighbour u c..it was like she didnt change at all u noe..still look like last time..den still so quiet..haha..make mi feel like i veri loud n noisy..i nvr felt like tt b4 wor..i always e quietest among my frens..we walked ard..i saw e coffeshop wif the chicken rice i liked most still there, n i saw the kindergarten i was in as well..sigh..sweet old memories..den we went to heartland mall..okiee la there also change le..coz epb closed liao den the place opened up to a bigger space housing like 10++ shops..like annex in heeren..we went straight to the neoprint shop..took sm neoprints..if i can use camera take den i will post it as well..haha so many pictures to post.woah..den we juz walked ard..nv tok much as well..mi dunoe wad to sae smtimes.n it's always mi askin her qns..so for sm moments we were juz walking quietly..juz like in the past when we used to go hm 2gether.quietly.haha.may sound funni but i was real quiet last time as well.so quiet + quiet= quiet la.wad u expect..den we went bowling alley nearby..coz raining ma..no place to sit down so go there lor..got aircon n it's foc..haha.
anw..y does it alwaes rain when i meet my pri sch frens?
den we sit down n toked n toked a lil..i used cam take pic wif her..den silence.okiee maybe not exactly no sound.bowling alley damn noisy one.but i mean between us.den i ask her to tok lor..say smthg..q&a session..haha.den she asked,"u sure u not attached ah?"
*-_-''*
argh..do i haf tt "i'm attached" face or wad..i not attached okiee..to guys out there esp..i'm single n available!!haha..looking forward to my "hong hong lie lie" de "chu lian"... o^-^o
yah den we parted at 5plus coz i had to go to daanesh's bbq.

arrived at 6,waited until 6.30,by the time we reached his hse, it was 7.30 le..but wow his hse is big!! 2 storey de..veri erusian style.1st thg we noticed while there was this "new" couple frm my class..woah we have a class couple le wor..interesting..both change to contacts,n both wore pink.i heard the guy suggested it.my god.n to tink he was my classmate since sec1..he certainly changed alot..now taller n more shuai.haha.n i dun tink i toked to him for more den 10 sentences?haha..classmates ah..n to tink ppl were juz making fun of dem by teasing them..[they were sitting side by side in class..but it's a 4 ppl row la..3 gers+this guy] n it came true..woah..luckily my rumours nv come true..coz it's my nu-er anyhow rumour de lor..mi dun even tok to dem actuali.heng ah.those she rumour not my type de..haha
we played blackjack[wif mhd as the lousy banker, n mi losing badly],ate sm bbq food[bbq food is alwaes not enuf] n took sm photos for momento..[daanesh is leaving for UK on 2nd Jan to further his studies] n had a sit down tok to discuss abt tml's thg..smthgs they sae were scary la..but i muz hand it to mhd,daanesh n mark..for being so calm n still able to fool n joke ard..sm of them realli funni la..overall,well i had fun la..luffing myself to tears over their silly jokes..we left his hse at abt 11.20pm..den i reached my hse at abt 12.15am..woah..1st time i so late alone outside..mi no ppl pei mi go hm u c..not like those lucky gers..i went 7-11 to buy titbits to eat..too hungry cannot stand it ler..den on my way hm, i so scared ppl following me..i tot one guy following mi sia..lucky he halfway went e other direction.den i go take lift also scared when i wan close door tt time smbodi rush in.haha..thankfully, nthg happen n i went hm unharmed..haha..
-tink too much le la mi-

hmmm..tt's abt it ler..i dun wan type animore..been at it for 2+ hrs le..now 8.55 ler..typing on-off-ly la..chatting wif frens as well.

-rushes to eat dinner- ...byeee!~

2004-12-23T13:50:00.000+08:00

happy bdae kangting!!~todae's e dae u turn sweet sixteen wor..hope u haf a great dae n enjoy ur dae!~
finalli..i published my blogg ler..it took mi almost one wk to do it wor..coz of the song..haha..it was taufiq n sly's i dream sang at SI finals..but i wan to make it more mi u noe..so i tried hard to find a song lor..so difficult!!~hai anw..coz now 2 daes to xmas..so put this song lor..haha..cute bah? hope my xmas wishes will b fulfilled wor..santa claus!~ c my wish list on the left? i wan those by xmas!!thank u!!haha..
i'm pretty xcited now tt it's going to b xmas soon..although my family dun realli celebrate...but nvm..i'll try my best persuade my mum buy a turkey, log cake or smthg..coz it's finalli one xmas spent relaxingly n happily coz no homework!!haha..past few yrs alwaes bia hmwk last min so end up my xmas is spent doing hmwk..no fun de..kk enuf of tt..yep..2 more daes!~ reali looking forward to it!~ oh yah ppl if u wan mi link u can leave ur urls at e tag board n i'll link u..link mi too okiee!~ thx..

muhh 1st entry!~

2004-12-19T15:09:00.000+08:00

hey ppL..this is my 1st blogg!~ i'm veri veri happi, elated, delighted, over the moon[ etc etc..u ged my meaning la hor] tt i finalli got a blogg..haha..it's kinda like a 'c-others-haf-i-also-wan' kinda feeling u noe..yah..to those hu r reading this right now..thx for coming!~ make urself comfotable n sit bak n relax okiee..haha..like sm movie showing like tt..i tink for this entry i shld like 'conclude' wad i've been up to lately yah..but actualli there's nthg much la..boring life i haf u noe..haha..so here goes:
since the end of my Os..i've been going to job inteviews, going for sm band practices, going out wif my sis, going for chalets..haha..like going aniwhere but my hm..tt's y my study table is still in a mess..as though i still having Os like tt..all my notes n bks on the shelves n on the table..veri messy la..c liao dun even wan sit at my table..yah i'll try to tidy it one of these daes..u'll b my witness okiee!
i veri disappointed wif my job hunt..it's like i looked for a job since e start of the hols, den now alreadi one mth still cant find sia..every single dae bia here n there to the interviews, den get their "we'll call u once u're shortlisted"..which is like = "u're not hired" frm this experience n my frens hu found jobs,wad i've learnt is tt to find a job...u need

to pull sm strings..like lobangs or recommendations frm frens or frens' frens
to haf experience..which is like "duh" for ppl like mi hu nv worked b4
to b able to commit more den 1 mth..impossible for mi as well..
to be pretty/handsome..so tt when all e above doesnt apply for u..ur charms might b able to get the employer smitten n thus hire u..haha..actuali tt's my pov..dunnoe if tt reali is e case..

so in conclusion..i dun qualify for the above 4 pts, hence i havent been able to find a job n yah, i've alreadi given up the job hunt starting this wk..too tired le..n i nid sm personal time to tidy my stuff n ged readi for jc as well..speaking of which..i'm still in sm sort of dilemma..dunnoe wan transfer to tjc not..i'm aiming for tt la..but it seems so stressful..smmore the pts need so low den can ged in..prelim onli nid 8pts max..Os reault how sia..i dunoe wad to xpect for my results lor..no confidence..after finishing e exams i was like how cum it's like prelims..i was xpecting it to b ez-ier leh..hai..dunnoe lah..we'll c wad happens next feb end when we ged results..

hmmm..i hope i can spend a meaningful hols starting now..hope my last 2 wks of freedom wld be well spent n more "happening" den the past mth..haha..rmb to "tag my board" okie..inlcude ur blogg add so tt i can link u as well..kk c u soon!~